The 5th Member

Chapter 20

Liam's POV

I'm really trying to focus on what Lexi is telling me about this trip she wants to take to see her god awful father, but I had a terrible dream last night and it repeats to play through my head.

I know that I have evident PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) from the whole "Lexi losing her memory" incident. But the dreams are terrible.

"Hello? Liam?" She says, her brow scrunched and her lips slightly parted. Perfect.

"Yes tomorrow, we leave tomorrow." I say trying to gather all of my thoughts.

"Are you sure?" She says slowly looking in to my eyes.

"Yep, you need this" I say, and I really mean it.

...

I stare at her practically lifeless body.

I can't believe this has happened to my beautiful girlfriend. It really proves that the silliest things, can take away the really important things.

"You're better off without her anyway" I hear someone whisper into my ear.

"Get the fuck off of me!" I yell to the stranger.

As I push them off of me, I realize exactly who it is.

Sophia.

Sophia is my ex girlfriend. We both knew that things were never going to work out between us because she couldn't work with my schedule and we both knew we needed to see other people.

And I'm so glad I did.

I would have never of had the chance to meet Lexi, if I didn't end the whole sophia thing.

"I know you still want me.." She says and then looks over at Lexi.

The heart rate meter is slowing down, and the line goes flat.

"She isn't even alive anymore" sophia giggles under her breath. "Too bad she had a little incident.." He smirks.

I don't even hear her anymore as I walk over to her bedside. I place my hand on her cold lifeless body. I cry. I cry harder than I ever have.

...

That's when I woke up. I haven't been able to think straight ever since I woke up.

All Lexi wants to talk about is going to see her piece of shit dad, who has really never benefited her life at all.

He was the reason for the horrible scars on her beautiful skin, mostly on her legs because she really wanted to feel the pain, and the is where she felt it the most.

I understand that it is her father, so somehow there is that biological attachment, but if what she needs is closure, it is exactly what she is going to get.

I haven't been wanting to tell Lexi, but her dad wasn't even concerned about her after she fell off the stage. He didn't come to the hospital, he didn't call, nothing. He has never supported her musical career, never once had he asked about our relationship.

"Okay.. Tomorrow it is!" She says and claps her hands together. "Oh this is going to be great! Oh! You can meet Tinley!"

I smile trying to be excited with her, but I'd be more excited if we were going to live in the desert for a week.

"Well I have to get dressed, I'm going to the studio, and actually recording my parts for the new album" she beams.

It is actually one of the first times she is acting like my normal Lexi ever since the accident.

"Good luck baby" I smile at her and she giggles at me.

"Shut upppp" she moans and wobbles over to the couch. She jumps on her phone and begins to type.

I laugh. I'm trying to take in the moment as much as I can. Sometimes I worry that she won't feel the flame that I still feel.

I feel my phone buzz in my pocket. It's a tweet that Lexi had just tagged me in.

"Recording in the studio today @LittleMixOfficial, and hanging out with my silly boyfriend @RealLiamPayne! Love him xx"

Yup, she loves me.

I walk over to the couch and sit next to her, I nudge her gently and she lets out a deep cackle.

"Silly boyfriend?! More like dorky girlfriend! :P Love her xx @LexiMixOffic"

She glances over at me and looks at me with a goofy smile on her face. These are the moments I live for.

I never thought I'd ever be able to see that smile for myself ever again.

It was the hardest point for me ever in my life. That's why everytime she leaves, I almost have a panic attack. I feel like, if I'm not there to protect her she is going to get hurt.

But as long as I am with her, she is not gonna get hurt. I won't let another soul even get fucking close to her if I don't have a good feeling about them.

I won't lose her again.

(Sorry I know it was short but I have been so busy lately! Love you guys so much!❤️ COMMENT AND VOTE PLEASE)