"Lexi god damn it!" I hear my dad curse from down the stairs. That's all I ever hear, he never stops. The thing is, I never realize what I'm doing wrong. I stump down the stairs to see what he is yelling and cursing about.
"What the hell? You think you can just go out tomorrow for your birthday at all hours of the night?!" He yells at me and in defense in yell back.
"Yes father, I'm turning 19 tomorrow for your information, I'm an adult woman and you have no right to tell me what to do!" I scream and I see him raise his hand and I flinch.
He lowers his hand and tries to rest his hand on my shoulder, he could have hit me and it wouldn't have been anything new.
"I hate you..." I say through my breath and begin to cry while running up the stairs. I lock my bedroom door and begin to cry I look up at my ceiling I need to get out of here. Forever.
I go over to my drawer in my vanity and pull out a fresh razor, I haven't cut since two years ago. I can't take it anymore, I begin to cut up and down my arms.
16....17...18...19 cuts, for all the years that people have hurt me, I hurt myself. I'm not good enough.
I drop the razor and watch the blood run down my arms, I run to the bathroom and grab a warm washcloth and begin to dab it at the cuts. I grab some coverup and try to hide the scars.
I grab my phone and find my best friend Tinley in my contacts to call her immediately.
"Lexi, are you ok?!" I wonder why she is so panicked and I realize it's 1am
"Oh my god, did I wake you? I'm so sorry I..." You can hear me sobbing
"It's fine, do you need to come over?!" She is scared, good going lexi.
"Yeah I'm on my way" I say and she reassures me that everything is ok and to be careful driving around this late.
I pack a small suitcase of my things that are really important to me, because I know that as soon as I leave my dad will totally distort my room but I don't care anymore, because I'm not coming back here, and that is a promise.
I tip toe my way down the creaky stairs and hurry out the door, I know my engine starting will wake my dad... On second thought he is probably past intoxicated and passed out on the couch.
I throw my larger suitcase in the back followed my my purse and carry on bags. I guess I packed more than I thought. I start up my engine and make my way to Tinleys house.
There is no one on the highway this late at night. So it is easy to get to Tinleys house quickly and not get a speeding ticket.
I quietly open the door, when I do Tinley is sitting on her couch in her snuggie and watching some informercial about something nobody actually needs. Her eyes are wide.
"Oh my god! Are you ok?!" She says as I sit on the couch next to her and she hugs me tightly.
"I'm ok, just the normal stuff.."
"I'm so sorry Lexi, that's terrible.."
"Yeah... I'm used to it.." I say trying as hard as I can to keep my eyes open. It's now about 2:30am and my birthday is tomorrow. I'm beyond exhausted and I'm not sure what Tinley is planning for me tomorrow.
"You should sleep, go sleep in my bed. The birthday queen needs her beauty sleep" she says while rubbing my arms.
Instead of disagreeing with her I find I'm pulling myself up the stairs and plopping down in her bed so I can sleep. I wake up often in the middle of the night because of nightmares. I try to dream about how my life could be like, a better life, not this one.
Could my life ever get better?
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FanfictionLexi Jensen had some hard teenage years. Abandoned by her mother and trapped with her drunken dad. On her 19th birthday, something changes. Waking up in a hospital, surrounded by strangers. But some of the most famous strangers in the world? More li...
