The Miracles

Chapter 7- Broken

Ella's P.O.V:

I lied. I'm not okay. I don't know what to do. I'm freaking out. Something's wrong with me.

As soon as I dropped Katie off, I walked into the eerily empty apartment, slamming the front door shut and running past Liv's empty room as the first tear fell. I dropped onto my bed and rolled onto my back, tears continuously flowing down my face.

I thought about Liv, all the memories and fun times we've had. All the fights we've gone through and all the times we forgave eachother. Because that's true friendship. It's when, no matter what, you always come back to eachother. Because you need them. You can't live without them.

I put my hand over my mouth, even though no sounds were coming from my mouth. All I could do was close my eyes and see her face. I let out a broken sob as I placed a hand over my stomach, feeling the outline of our ring resting under my shirt.

I felt like throwing up. I was panicking for her safety and I know it seems stupid to you but I didn't know what to do.

I couldn't move, feeling the tears streaming down my face and onto my pillow. I knew what was happening, but I couldn't stop it. I was having a panic attack. It doesn't happen often but I started having panicking attacks when I was 12. It only happens when I'm worried for the safety of people that I am closest to.

I couldn't move. I couldn't wipe the tears from my face. One of my hands were over my mouth while the other always resting over the ring on my stomach due to it being on a black string around my neck.

I didn't know what to do. Usually someone breaks me out of my thoughts and then I run away, calm myself down, and come back. But I don't have anybody. Because she's missing. Not that she knows I have panic attacks. Nobody knows. I've always been so scared to tell them because I didn't want them to leave me.

There was a knock at the front door, causing my eyes to snap open.

Then another.

And another.

"Ella? Are you in there?" I heard a familiar voice ring through the door. But I couldn't quite put my finger on who it belonged to. I felt my body, sit up, a sigh of relief coming out of my mouth but the tears didn't stop. I had to use all of my energy to walk to the door when all I wanted to do is collapse on the ground and cry myself to sleep. I hope the person outside the door is worth it. I unlocked the lock, opening the door only slightly and looking out, another sob breaking from my lips as I saw the person outside. I slammed the door shut, my hand covering my mouth once again as I fell to the ground.

Why won't the tears stop?!?

The door slammed open and he shut it behind him, falling to the floor next to me and enveloping me in a big hug.

"What happened Ellie?!?" He mumbled into my hair as I sobbed into his chest.

"C-colbs.." I cried out, gripping onto his shirt.

"I'm here Ellie. I'm right here. Don't worry, I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere" he said, pulling me into his lap as he leant his back against the door.

"S-she's missing" I said quietly through my sobs.

"Who?" He questioned softly, lightly petting my hair.

"L-L-Liv" I said, another loud broken sob coming out after saying her name.

"Oh my God, I'm so sorry Ellie, I'm so sorry" he said, hugging me tighter. I couldn't thank him enough for being here. Especially because he didn't shush me, he just let me cry and let everything out like nobody else ever did.