The Wolves Howling In My Head

Addiction

You know it better than me so let me know if I'm wrong.
I'm addicted to you, that much you and I can agree with.
You claim it to be like heroin.
I claim it to be like alcohol.

It's a full-blooded addictions and so regardless I think I need you.
It's a psychological addiction as well as a physical one.
And without you I fear the face of withdrawal.

You numb the pain of the world.
Both.
You make me all giddy and excited.
Heroin.
You make me feel so calm and relaxed.
Alcohol.

Long ago you compared me to your addict father.
He's a man who beats his family.
I'm a boy who hated distance.
I'm a boy who longed for love.
I'm not like him at all.

I love you like a drug.
I hate you like a drug.
I miss you like a drug.
I sometimes wish I never met you.
I sometimes wish you never left.
God, just drive my head through a wall.

I'm addicted to you.
Without you I've lost weight.
Without you I've talked to people like they're other drugs just to get by.
Without you I'm depressed.
It's all symptoms of withdrawal.