Saved me

C h a p t e r s e v e n

Saige Turner's pov

I was walking down the hallway and spot Finn again with the crowd. "I Saige Turner take a pledge on never being too close with Finn wolfhard or any other bitch that comes my way" I muttered to myself.

"What are you muttering to yourself?" Finns voice behind me said. I gasped and looked around to check if anyone was looking at us but no. He has got away from the crowd again but we only got a few minutes left before they realise he's gone.

"You looked the word up?" Finn asked. I gave a sarcastic smiled. "Yeah I did, and I don't know what we are but I'll figure out a word. For now we are just strangers who are talking" I said.

3 minutes my head ticked.

"Friends, basically" He said. I winced and shook my head. "No, hoser we are...... stranking" I said making up a word. Finn gave me a confused look. "Stranking?" He asked. I pulled him inside the janitors closet so then we had more time to talk.
"You know stranking, strangers talking. It sounds wierd but I gotta put a word to it" I explained.

He was chuckling. I pushed him playfully. "Jeez, thanks. Hoser. My self-esteem is low now" I said giving a small laugh. Although my self-esteem was already low. Low enough to to think about suicide

⚠suicide thoughts involved. Don't ever think this way. You are awsome the way you are don't ever try to change you because everyone else is taken. Think about how you could change our future and focus on main goals in life don't ever make suicide your option⚠

5 minutes up!
"A-alright, noone can k-know w-we were t-talking" I said moving away from him opening the janitors closet.
He grabbed me by the waist and forced me close to him. Our faces again dangerously close. My breath hitched. Finn looked at me dreamy like. "Why can't people know? I feel lonely in this school, can't I be with you?" He asked me.

"Your friends are coming soon so suck it up for at least one day" I said emotionless pretending that he did not pull me closer to him. I turned away from him and felt his eyes resting on me.

Time passed

I stopped at a coffee shop and asked for one croissant. I sat alone reading a magazine and someone sat across me. I didn't look up because if it were someone new and I faced that him/her they would hate me. I don't know how it was possible. "Sorry, wrong place, buddy" I said.

"I think not" a voice said. The sound of his voice was sharp in my ear I whipped my head up and found him seated there in front of me giving me an 'watcha-doin?' Look. I laughed nervously and went to the counter, paying for my croissant. I ran out. Finn ran after me and whipped my body to his direction.

"I told you, I warned you. Stay away from me" I said. "What are you, Elsa?" He asked referring to the movie Frozen."Hey hoser, leave me alone" I said annoyed. 5 minutes passed. "No! Do I make you uncomfortable ? Am I doing something wrong?" He asked me with worry in his face. "No!" I yelled back sounding like my sister.

"I am so sick of this shit! You always back out on me!" He yelled. "Well, that's because I don't wanna be close to you or anybody. It's not like we can be more than just friends!" I yelled back. Finn looked hurt at this statement. "Well, even as a person. Be nice!" He exclaimed.

I scoffed at him."Well, know one thing this world is not nice. Your in a bubble, where you get everything you want and people are nice to you because your famous but I'm not gonna be like them, I'm gonna be a person who shows you the real fucking world!" I yelled back.

I looked around me and realised people were walking by. I decided to walk away to a place where noone could here us, I knew Finn would follow me there which was good because I wanted to say more.

"Bullshit" He said looking away from me. I looked at him confused but still my face emotionless like I didn't care. "What's bullshit Finn? That you can't see the real world? Or are you implying it on my life?" I asked turning towards him once again.

"You know what I mean" He said as his face softened. It just got me mad. "Finn!realize that I'm totally different from you and always will be, go hang out with these rich ass kids. It's where you belong. Kicking people who have low self-esteem and who haven't got a phone or the people who can't afford for certain things!" I yelled getting out of hand.

He rolled his eyes again and looked at me."I would never fucking do that because I realize how wrong it is. I just wanna thank you for putting it out there 'who I really am'" Finn snarled.

I just scoffed and put my middle finger leaving him by himself as I ran back home. "Have a great life, Wolfhard. Oh, sorry. You already have one of those! I forget because I'm focused on myself and I realise how much of a bad life I have!" I said with sarcasm.

"God! Your so fucking annoying!" He yelled. "Baby, I was born this way!" I said as I rolled my eyes and walked even further.

Time passed

I slammed the door behind me and my dad came out of nowhere. "Fuck, I have to deal with him" I muttered under my breath. "Don't fucking slam the door!" He yelled.
"Dad, I brought something for you" I said pretending to reach for my pocket and gave him the middle finger. "Saige!your not allowed to do this to your own father!" He yelled.

"Why not? You don't treat me like a daughter" I shot back and bolted to my room and locked it and put all my weight on it. He might barge in my room and break my door. I started to cry and I hated this feeling of crying. I'm way too familiar with crying but this type of crying alerted me.

I usually cry over being beaten and the crying would feel 'im-done-with-life-because-life-hates-me' but this crying I was feeling more 'i-regret-what-i-said-i-am-such-a-jerk-off'

They sound similar but they are totally different feeling.

Time passed

It's 10:06 pm  I decided to climb out my window and sit in the front lawn.
I was sitting down cuddled my knees, I look down staring at the grass as my murderous trembling hands pluck the grass out from the roots. I was deep in thought about my suicide.........

Suicide plan :

It's gotta be memorable and not too commonly done.

Like.......

Drown myself in sea with one tonne weight chained on me, so I don't swim my way for breath because I don't trust myself when trying not to breathe....... the problem is.....
I need a 1 tonne weight and I need some chains which I guess is easy to find. But going to a beach would be hard, I'll figure things ou-

My thoughts were distracted by the noise of someone seated next to me. The noise of grass scratching each other and the wind slowly whistling through. I knew it was Finn because of his classic shoes (Nike, black shoes)

I look up the sky and felt Finn's eyes laid on me. My eyes were red and scratchy from crying too much. "I'm sorry, that I look like a zombie right now.... but that isn't my fault because I didn't know you were gonna sit next to me" I apolagized.

The corner of my eye spots Finn grinning and chuckling to himself.

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