Saved me

C h a p t e r t h i r t y - f i v e

Saiges pov

He opened the door and I didn't know what to say I just stood there locking eyes and he did the same. I just kissed him immediately while walking into his room the door automatically closing. He kissed back but then he pushed me away. God the feeling just washed away. I owed him an explanation.

"I... can't.... do it any more" I finally said. It felt great I was ignoring him for so long. He was surprised too that I was talking to him.

"I love you!" I exclaimed. I put my face in one of my palms and felt tears running down my cheeks. I let them stay I do not wipe them off.

"I don't care what you fucking did at court and I don't care you didn't let me finish beating up my cousin. I don't care what people think of me... I only care————- about you" I admitted. He still kept quiet.

"I can't believe I did not realize it. I was so mad that I let you go to Tash and I hated her guts because we were about to kiss at the dance until..... I wanted that so bad. I talked to Nick and we got on-"

"I know I heard" Finn said sternly.

"I cared about you so much that I wanted my family away from you.... I told my sister to stay away from Nick because I cared! I didn't tell you about the case because I didn't want you hurt... I made sure I didn't hurt you but I did! I hurt myself too by doing so!" I yelled and Finn just shook his head.

"Yeah you hurt me bad... what do you want from me Saige?" He asked.

I half grinned "I really do care about you... I kissed two guys to see if I was just crazy or something but no.... that kiss on the pool... I kissed you because I hated the fact that we hated each other from the very core! I wanted to feel..." I just looked up and bit my lip and then I looked down at him again.
He had his hands in his pocket still listening. "I wanted to feel- feel the way you touched me... the way you kissed me the way you made me feel..... so free and safe" I stuttered.

He didn't say anything

"I really do care about your answer and I'm not gonna lie.... it may hurt me or make me the happiest girl in the world. But I don't wanna sit aside like I did before and just wait. I'm here in front of you asking you Finn wolfhard  if you would do me the honor of being the love of my life?" I asked.

He had no expression he just massaged his head and he looked at me. "Please don't throw me away. Don't throw us away!" I pleaded.
We locked eyes for a good solid 10 seconds and then he looked down.

"I can't"

My heart shattered into a million pieces and just fell down. I don't think I have a heart anymore

Stupid love!