Captured

Chapter 21

(This chapter was incredibly hard to write. Mental health is a huge problem, but it shouldn't be just your problem. I know from self doubt and self hate in my own life that you should never go through anything alone. Find that one friend you can trust or adult in your life and talk to them. 💖)

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"MAXWELL!" I screamed. He ran into the room. I sobbed. "I'm sorry I couldn't take it. I needed the escape. I'm sorry." I sobbed shaking my head and looking at my bloody wrist. "Brair no." Maxwell dropped beside me and grabbed a towel. He wrraped it around my wrist. "Brair why. You have me. You can talk to me. Brair listen." I just shook my head wanting to forget what I did I didn't mean it I didn't. "Maxwell." I was shaking terrified at what I had done. "Brair why? Why Brair, why?" Maxwell was trying hard to not breath it in. I could tell. "Brair it's getting harder to be in here. I'm trying so hard. So hard." I saw a tear run down his face. "Maxwell just go. I can clean it myself." He stiffened up and his eyes turned green. "Brair I got it, just I'm trying to stay strong." He took the towel and pressure off my arm and there was a clear line. I hadn't cut deep which was good. He wrraped it up in a bandage after putting cleaning alcohol on it. I'd only made one line across my wrist but it scared me. It felt good while doing it, not after.

"Brair," I looked up at him "It's gonna scar." I shook my head and looked down tears flooded my eyes. I just felt empty, alone, forgotten, a nothing. "Brair," Maxwell lifted his head so I could see right into his now blue eyes. "I told you I loved you, and I sure as hell ment it. I'm always here for you and you can tell me anything. I love you Brair, but seeing you like this hurts me more than it hurts you. I can't even watch the tears stream from your face. Brair I love you, I love you, you are perfect and special. You are my always." I shook my head in a no motion. I covered my ears with my hands. I needed the voices to stop. I destroy everything!

Maxwell grabbed my hands and held them to my sides. "Brair if us running away is to much for you then we won't do it. We can go back, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what will happen. I don't want you to die. I love you Brair and I can't let Eli kill you. That's why we can't go back."

I felt awful. I just wanted to die. If I did then--no Brair no. Stop thinking this way. Just be happy. I can't be happy!

"Maxwell" I sobbed out. "Brair?" He asked with pain in his voice. "I love you too, and I know we can't go back." "Brair no one is there anymore. Only evil. I promise you if I could turn you imortal I would, but I can't Brair. I am the only thing protecting you. You know why because I love you. You are my everything, and worth every last breath in my body. I would die for you Brair. And there is no way in hell I am gonna let you die becuase of you." He paused and sighed. "Brair just talk to me next time. I'm always here for you. 24/7. You are my always-" I cut him off "and forever." I wrraped my arms around his neck and sccooted into his lap. I burried my head there. "Maxwell, I am sorry. So sorry." "Brair I'm sorry. I didn't know that this was gonna be hard for you." "It's not you Maxwell it's me. I can't be happy" I sobbed. "Brair, I thought I could never be happy, that was until I met you" Maxwell replied.

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Published~ 4~18~18

Word count~ 679

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