desperate [park jihoon]

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"hey, calm down okay" jihoon smiles at the smaller girl dragging him by the wrist. he has no idea where she's bringing him.

"i think i should be telling that to you, how could you just hit someone like that dummy" hana stops abruptly to turn around. she smacks his arm twice, making him flinch.

"oW OW- okay, okay im sorry jeez"

hana sighs, crossing her arms and taking a few steps away from him. 

"sad about it?" jihoon asks, caressing the spot hana slapped earlier. 

"hey, someone that made me think i was loved broke me, came back and expected me to get together with him again. even after what he did to me, what do you think i'm feeling right now?" she says in a bittersweet tone, rubbing her left elbow with her right hand. 

jihoon purses his lips, taking a step towards her, she lowers her head to look at the ground.

"are... are you crying?"

he notices the tears falling on the sidewalk, how her lips were trembling and the tiny, barely audible sobs that were leaving her frame. the boy could hear her ragged breaths, how she couldn't bring herself to look at jihoon made him feel sad. 

jihoon's body moved on its own. unconsciously, his arms wrapped around her smaller frame, holding her tight. 

"she wasn't always like this" jisung chuckles, leaning back at couch. his small smile drops as he crosses his arms, staring forward.

"hyung?" jihoon calls, leaning at the edge of his seat.

"huh, she was pretty confident back then, but that shit stain seongwoo had to come into the picture. you have no idea how difficult it was watching her hurt herself like that, watching her suffer silently. because no matter how hard we tried to help her, she wouldn't let us" 

the younger boy could tell how hurt jisung was. every word that came out of his mouth were laced with sadness, and the way he spat seongwoo's name had jihoon intimidated. 

"it wasn't like hana wasn't loved. she was, by many people. she had no idea how many people she hurt, she pushed everyone away when they were trying to help. she just needs someone to break down her walls, none of us could. it was a tough time"

jihoon nods in acknowledgement, biting the inside of his cheek.

"even until now, she's a lot more healthier, but that personal wall- barrier- it's not broken down yet" 

"j-jihoon?" the surprised hana says his name hesitantly. 

"you dont have to suffer alone anymore. i'm here for you"