desperate [park jihoon]

epilogue

winter, 2020. 

Today 2:03 AM 

@song.hana jihoon? are you up? 

@p.jihoon yeah, whats up?

@song.hana i cant sleep lol 

@song.hana i... wanna see you

@p.jihoon awwwww 

@song.hana hdsadj shut up

@p.jihoon well, do you want me to head over? 

@song.hana uh no im actually at the corner store near my apartment

@p.jihoon mhm i'll head over 

@p.jihoon give me 5 minutes

@song.hana i'll  be waiting

@song.hana be safe

@p.jihoon yep <3

seen

"hey nerd" 

hana turns her head to see jihoon running up to her with a wide smile on his face. she smiles back, giving a small wave. he sits in front of her on one of the chairs prepared outside the store. 

"you know, you need to try actually sleeping instead of getting me to meet you every time you cant" jihoon teases, leaning onto the table. 

he wore a black thick hoodie and some jeans, his hair in slight disarray from running his hands through his hair too much and not bothering to fix it. hana wore this thick white turtle neck with some jeans too. the weather was getting colder and yet another year was passing by. 

"well, if you're tired of it I can just get daniel to meet me  yknow. he's back in seoul visiti-"

"nO!" 

hana starts to laugh at jihoon outburst. he pouts, crossing his arms. 

"you're mine, i ain't sharing you"

hana looks away, smiling happily. the now pink haired boy admires his girlfriend lovingly. 

"ice cream?" jihoon asks. 

"its like 2 degrees right now, park jihoon" hana chuckles, looking back at her boyfriend. 

he stands up from his seat, his girlfriend's eyes following him. he tucks his hands into the hoodie pockets, turning his back on her.

"screw you i'm getting ice cream anyway" 

"vanilla" hana calls out, making jihoon smirk as he enters the convenient store. 

soon enough, the boy comes out with two cones of soft served vanilla ice cream. he sits down, hana reaching out her hand to grab her cone only for jihoon to retract his hand defensively. 

"who said this was for you? they're both mine. you said you didn't want any right?" he says with a triumph smirk upon his face.

"park jihoon" hana says, venom laced in her voice.

somehow despite the low temperature jihoon still managed to break out in cold sweat.

"okay, okay. jeez" 

he purposely shoves it in front of her face, the tip of the ice cream getting onto the tip of her nose. jihoon holds back a laugh as hana quickly grabs the cone from him. 

"you're so mean to me" she frowns. 

"here, let me get it for you" jihoon reaches over to wipe the small bit of ice cream off her nose. 

hana's cheeks turn red, making him smile. 

"don't get the wrong idea! it's just... really cold" hana says, looking away. 

"pft, sure jan"

hana checks her watch, it reads 4 AM. 

"time really flies, its been two hours already" hana says, licking her ice cream. 

"you wanna head to my place to cuddle?" jihoon asks, smiling hopefully. 

when hana opens her mouth to reply, jihoon doesn't let her finish. "i don't care, we're going whether you like it or not. here, my car's around here" 

he takes her hand abruptly, pulling her up from her seat. 

"hey! slow down!" hana calls as jihoon continues to drag her around, giggling continuously. "jihoon-"

the girl stumbles over a pebble, losing her balance almost falling onto the rough, uneven ground. 

almost.

instead of colliding with the ground, she falls into jihoon's arms, her face buried in his chest. she looks up shyly while he smiles down at her. he cups her face with his right hand, pulling down her mask with the other, revealing her nose and lips, the mask resting on her chin. 

he pulls her into a shot but sweet kiss, warming the two up in the cold weather. they pull away after a while, jihoon smiling in content. hana stands to her feet, unable to tear her gaze away from jihoon's face.

his features were even more beautiful under the soft light coming from the lamp post. his admiring smile that lit up his lips was enough to make hana's heart skip a beat.

"oh, what's this?" jihoon reaches out his hand. 

a small snowflake falls into his palm. 

"it's snowing.." hana speaks, looking up at the sky. 

white speckles floated down from the dark night sky. the cold air feeling great against their skin. stuck in a trance, hana couldnt help but continue admiring the sky. 

i've always liked winter. the world was quiet and cold. however, i've always associated it with solitude and loneliness. 

jihoon takes her hand, the warmth quickly enveloping her small palm. she finally tears her gaze away from the sky to look at him. he gives her a soft smile that was enough to warm her heart despite the low temperature.

he took her to his car, and they've finally went to jihoon's apartment. 

hana's life wasn't all about bringing herself down anymore. she had someone to give it meaning now. she didn't look at the mirror and hated every inch of herself, from head to toe anymore. she didn't stop having meals in fear of changing her appearance anymore.

because she knew that at the end of the day, he would still be with her. 

on that cold winter night, hana knew

winter wasn't lonely and cold anymore. 

because she had her with him. 

-End. 

wow how sentimental ;;

i just got back from a dance battle kinda thing? so its like rlly late and im trying my best to write this author's note without going all over the place

no i didnt participate but it was interesting

anyway! ahh i just wanna thank the ones that's experienced this roller coaster of a story with me! it was fun toying with fanfic jihoon's feelings

jk sometimes i feel bad sometimes i dont

but yes! as of today, desperate is my second completed story! and im kinda glad bc i was kinda scared that i would drag this story out too much, bc i never had a solid story line, but yay i managed to close this story up

again, thank you for reading! i'm sure there's more to come.