SEVENTEEN RIGHT HERE

Pain

Trigger warning: self harm, mental health, suicidal thoughts.

Seventeen is not a band here

-littlevampire and thughao are online-

littlevampire: OH MY GOD MINGHAO YOURE ALIVE

thughao: minghao is not available at the moment please text again latter

littlevampire: then why are you online???

thughao: Junhui please I just thought the others were online I just wanted to quietly read the msgs

littlevampire: and not say anything

thughao: yea pretty much

littlevampire: hao hao are you ok

littlevampire: you rarely eat with us anymore and you always spend time by yourself and locked me out of OUR room and you always where long sleeves and sweaters now

thughao: jun jun I'm fine

littlevampire: baby I love you, there's something bothering you please tell me

thughao: it's hard to explain

littlevampire: minghao it's me wen Junhui I'll do anything in the world for you my baby boy

thughao: it's long and I'm gonna vent to you tho

littlevampire: minghao

thughao: I just feel so underrated at times, I could do so much better and I'm not good enough for everyone else. I just feel like everyone and everything hates me and I dunno just the world seems dull. And I just feel like there's no meaning to life anymore and I just waste every pointless day.

littlevampire: have you seen Dr. Choi lately

thughao: no

littlevampire: baby if you leave I don't have anyone, I won't have a meaning to life anymore. You're my meaning in life and I'm yours. There are many people that love and care for you

thughao: THEN TELL ME WHY THEY HATED ME WHY THEY THREW ME AWAY WHEN I WAS THEIR PRECIOUS LITTLE HAO

littlevampire: you're parents were drug addicts minghao I'm sorry all we could do for you was take you out of there and protect you. You are so lucky that my parents found you crying at the park and decided to take you in. And then we became more than just brothers. Your parents made a beautiful strong amazing talented and just perfect boy even when they didn't want to

thughao: they didn't want me jun they put me through pain for being the little brat I am and now I feel like pain is what I need

littlevampire: Minghao you didn't deserve to go through pain. You're so strong you went through all of it for fifteen years and now you're 27 and living a great life

thughao: yes I did deserve it

littlevampire: no you didn't and you don't and you never will, the only pain you deserve is the pain you feel when I pleasure you;)

littlevampire: off topic, anyways what have you been doing in your room for the past bit

thughao: nothing

thughao: jerking off to pictures of you

littlevampire: oh how I wish that was the actual answer

littlevampire: minghao I'm being serious

thughao: I deserve the pain

littlevampire: Minghao what were you doing...

littlevampire: you weren't- no you weren't Minghao, please tell me you weren't

thughao: I'm sorry jun

littlevampire: that's it I'm going over there

-littlevampire is offline-

thughao: jun no

-thughao is offline-

Jun fiddled with the lock, slammed open the door and ran into the room. He went straight for the corner farthest from the door, tears were streaming down his face. He collapsed onto the floor beside Minghao. The younger boy was crying and holding onto his red left arm.

Junhui pulled the smaller boy into his chest and took a look at his injury. "Min-minghao..." he stuttered. "I can't believe it..." he didn't have any words, he didn't know what to say, he just pulled said boy closer to him. "It's ok, hey hey, don't cry," the elder comforted.

"I'm sorry," the younger sobbed. "Don't tell anyone please, I don't wanna get in trouble."

"Shhh, shhh. No ones gonna put you into trouble, I'll keep you safe baby," jun picked up the inured boy and put him onto the bed. He closed the pocket knife and put it on the bedside table. They were still wrapped in each other's arms as they lay down.

"Can, can you he-heal me jun?" He stuttered.

Said boy kissed the top of minghaos head. "Yes I will baby, I always did, always will," he pulled the boy even closer to him. "Don't ever do that again you scared me so much. If you ever feel like that again just remember that I'm here for you, I will always take care of you, and if you leave I'll leave too."

"Thank you Junhui," minghao cooed, tears still falling down each other's cheeks. "For everything."

"I love you," jun ruffled his boyfriends hair and pecked his lips

Minghao nuzzled against his neck. At that moment he felt truly happy, he knew that there was someone who loved him. Jun has been there for him for eight years of his life and will always be there for him. Jun will always be there to protect him. Jun will always be there to love him. And that's why Minghao loved jun so much, because they were in a world where no one cared for him, but finally after fifteen years of waiting, there was someone. Jun.

"Hao hao?"

"Hm?" Minghao hummed in reply.

Jun sighed and kissed his boyfriends short ramen hair. "Will you marry me?"

"Of course," the younger boy smiled and pulled himself closer to his now fiancé.

Jun picked up minghaos left arm and practically did a fangirl-like squeal. Minghao winced from the pain that shot through his vain. "Ow Junnie," tears continued to fall.

"Oh oh, sorry baby, let's clean this up," he said, referring to the arm. He wiped a tear falling from his soon-to-be-husbands face.

Minghao smiled and hummed, "that sounds good. I love you so much jun."

"I love you too, now get up I needa get a bandage, my love."

Dear past Rae, what in the world were you thinking holy shit you're making everyone cry