Time...it flies. It's been two solid years. I know, I know. U don't believe in time and I should stop counting, but honestly, can you blame me? It's hard not to when you're missing someone. I just never realized I'd be missing you this much, especially because of my relationship with you.
It's like my relationships with some of my relatives. The love is present, but we ain't always in each other's thoughts, never checking in because we assume the other will always be there.
That's how I felt with you. I thought you'd always be there. Always be here. With us.
And the day you weren't... It never hit me. It was like it was just a thing that was gonna blow over and things go back to normal. Like I'd see you pop up somewhere in a few weeks looking fine and dandy.
As the days turned into months and everything settled, I felt so empty. Empty over you, a person I didn't even know.
As I'm writing this, standing in line at a record store for RSD, the void is real. I haven't even played any of your tunes at the moment. Honestly, I'm listening to everyone but you. Listening to the words that resonate with this day. With your life...
"Everyday is a gift Even when going through shit You better give it your all This is why you exist..."
You for damn sure did that. You gave your all. Everything. Even at your lowest points. And it makes me regret not staying in that bar in 2014.
"Tears I'm crying like the rain. I said I love you but it didn't show. Wish I had a chance to do it all over again."
I knew you were there. Not just by the whispers, but by your energy. I never felt anything like that in my life. Your spirit is so big, so powerful. I regret not telling you that that night... to give you flowers (my love and appreciate) while you could smell them.
But until I catch you on the other side, I'll use this. Thank you, Prince. Thanks for giving so much, for your encouragement, for teaching us all you could, for sharing your life with us, and asking for so little, shit, damn near nothing in return. That takes an awful lot. It takes a special person to do such a thing. And you definitely were something special. Something so extraordinary. Hope I see on the flip side, homie.
Also, I know I rag on you about your height all the time, but you know it's all jokes right?
No harm, no foul?
I'm just putting it out there because if I get there and you acting shady, we gon have some problems.
Love you, little man. I'm kidding, Skip! Okay, okay...I'll stop fucking around. But seriously, I love you, Prince.
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Yeah...Prince. You're definitely that. Our Prince. And they'll never be another
I should really go now.
PS: Come visit sometime my guy. Catch me in my dreams. Let my sixteen year old self kick ya ass in basketball. Haha. On the real. It'd be nice to know you're good. Then again, maybe that's what the music is for. A way to let us know you've always been good.
Until next time, my Prince. And I know I said this multiple times... But I'ma keep saying it.... ...even when you don't ask...
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Yes! My love for you is eternal. How can it not when you are apart of the light in the darkness? Forever & Always, Z
