Shit.

I'm Here

Hi
I just wanted to let you all know that I'm still here. Those of you who may know me outside of WP already know that, but still...
Anyway, I've still trying to deal. Still trying to get a grip. Just when I thought I was alright... he calls.

I let it ring.
We have nothing to discuss.

Then here it goes,
yesterday night/early morning (9/21).

This is only a fraction of the calls.
I picked up a few times...
It was some chick.
The first call she says, "this is Chanel, who is this..."
I hung up on her ass. Who calls someone asking who is this at 2:45 in the morning.
Eventually she calls again and asks if this is (insert my name) and then goes "this is Tre's girlfriend. you still talking to him? Are you still talking to my man?"

When I tell you I went off on this little girl for calling me, asking me about someone I haven't spoken to since I lost our child.
My words exactly:
"girl, you're worried about the wrong shit. That nigga got kids, fuck on anything and out here sucking dick on the low. Fuck off my line."

She continues to call. I eventually answer because clearly she has something to say. She asks if I'm pregnant 🤦🏾‍♀️ then says "well bitch if you pregnant ya baby gone have aids." She hangs up and I figure it's cool. She said her peace, now I can sleep.

Nope.
She keeps calling.

Now it's a guy.
"Don't be talking crazy to my people. Why you saying you gotta baby by Tre. I'ma fuck you up when I see you. I'll spit on you bitch..."

I hung up.
They just kept calling.
Eventually I figured out how to silence unknown numbers and No Caller IDs.

Still the notifications pop up.
My phone continued to blow up until 4am.

When I tell y'all I'm tired.
I mean that shit.
I'm so fuckin tired.

I haven't spoken to this guy since late June.
Haven't seen his face since late May/early June.
So why the fuck bother me?
Why let whomever he's dealing with now bother me?

I'm trying to heal over here.
Its all I want to do.
Heal and have some peace and quiet.
Is that too much to ask for?