Beat your heart out [Crowen fanfic]

Chapter 11 - When it's all over

Can two people really be meant to be? MFEO. Soulmates. It would be nice if it's true. That we all have someone out there waiting for us. Us waiting for them. I'm just not sure I believe it. Maybe I do believe it, all this "meant to be" stuff. Why not believe it, really? Who doesn't want more romance in their life? Maybe it's just up to us to make it happen. To show up and be meant for each other. At least that way you'll find out for sure. If you're meant to be or not.

📍Zurich, Cristina's apartment

Cristina's POV

The three tests were positive. I couldn't believe it, I didn't want kids and I was pregnant for the third time. What was the point ?

Owen was with Amelia, they were going to Chicago so I was going to make an appointment to have an abortion and nobody would ever know anything about that. After that I'll just keep going.

So I went to the hospital to make an appointment.

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2 days later

📍Seattle, Grey-Sloan Memorial hospital

Amelia's POV

We were in a conference room for our going-away party.

Meredith - So, today is the day.

Me - Yes !

Meredith - It's a great opportunity for you, this job in Chicago, you made the right decision.

Me - Yeah and I'm so happy that Owen comes with me. All right, we got to get going, our flight leaves in 2 hours. Owen ?

Owen - Yes, I'm coming !

Me - Well,...Goodbye everybody !

One hour later, we were in the gate room, waiting for the plane. But Owen seemed really stressed, and was shaking his leg.

Me - Owen, are you okay ? It's ok to be nervous, we moved across the country but you can talk to me.

Owen - No, it's okay I'm fine.

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📍Zurich, Klausman Institute for Medical Research

Cristina's POV

I was in the waiting room, my appointment was supposed to be in 5 minutes. I was pretty stressed and a little scared to do this alone. Everything is gonna be okay.

Doctor - Dr Cristina Yang ?

Me - Yes.

Doctor - Come with me.

We entered the room, I put on the hospital gown and sat down. I was more scared now.

Doctor - Before we go any further, I have to ask you one last time, are you absolutely sure this is what you wanna do ?

No, I was not sure. I couldn't help it and I started crying.

Me - No...no...I'm sorry. I...I can't do this alone...and I...can't do this at all.

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📍Seattle, airport

Owen's POV

I was waiting for the plane with Amelia but I was stressed. I kept asking myself if I made the right choice. But then, something clicks in my mind...I got up and I kissed Amelia on the forehead.

Me - I'm so sorry but I can't come with you. I never meant to hurt you, but I just...can't. I'm sorry. Go to Chicago and be happy. You'll find someone better than me, someone that you deserve to be with.

And I left, leaving her there.

Being here, this close to going to Chicago, made me realize that I loved Cristina, I loved her more than anything and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. I had loved Amelia but she deserved someone that would love her more than I loved her.

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📍Seattle, Owen and Amelia's apartment

Meredith's POV

I was at Amelia's because she asked me to get the stuff they left here but I heard a key turning in the lock and Owen walked in.

Owen - Meredith ? What are you doing here ?

Me - I could ask you the same question.

Owen - I'm sorry, I couldn't leave. I realised that Cristina was the only woman that I love with all my heart and now I want to spend every day of my life with her.

Me - So Amelia left alone.

Owen - Yeah I guess. I feel so guilty about that but I had no choice.

Me - She will probably hate you for a while but I understand you, you followed your heart. Do you want me to call Cristina ? To tell her you're here.

Owen - No it's okay, I'm going to buy a ticket to Zurich. I wanna see her as soon as possible.

Me - Okay, if that's what you want.

Owen - Thank you Meredith.

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📍Zurich, Klausman Institute for Medical Research

Cristina's POV

I couldn't killed this baby but I couldn't raise this kid alone, either. Maybe I'm going to give it up for adoption. Owen was gone and he would never know.
But at the same time, I couldn't stay here, I didn't want nobody to know about the pregnancy.

I wrote a note for Shane, left it in my office, and I went to the airport. I had absolutely no idea where I was going.

It's all gone wrong
Heaven hold us
We've lost the sun
Heaven told us
The world was strong
Heaven hold us
Where do we go
When it's all over.