Pass Around (thatsojack fan fiction)

Chapter 18

The day I had been dreading since high school was over, the day I had been dreading for the past two years in junior college. This was it.

I knock and enter her bedroom and she's just lying there. Her headphones is, her eyes almost closed but not quite. Beautiful as ever. She's complete perfection and I can't believe I'm about to do this.

"Hey Kris, I let myself in like you told me to" I say and see her sit up from her bed and take her headphones out.

"Yeah, uh hey, what's up?" Kristen asks as I walk over and sit down next to her. I take her hands in mine and place them in my lap before I speak.

"You know I've been wanting to move to California for a while," I say and let out a breath, there's no turning back now.

"Yeah but you wanted to go to college first I thought, that's why you're taking two years of junior college, to figure out what you want to do. Right?"

"Yes, well no. I already know what I want to do Kris, I've always known," I start to explain.

"Then why haven't you left yet?" Kris asks as if she doesn't already know the answer.

"You know I wanted you to come with after you graduated, and now you have. There's just something about that plan that needs to be changed," I try and say but I can't find the words.

"What?" Kristen questions so innocently and I can't believe I'm about to break her heart. Just like that.

"You can't come with," I tell her.

"What... Why? Jack I want to come, that's the plan. Why don't you want me there? Are you not in love with me anymore?" She asks and pulls her hands from mine.

"No, of course I'm in love with you, but you have so much to do. You have your whole life ahead of you. You want to go to college, and I know you applied to Brown. And I also know you got in. Before we started dating you told me about how it was your dream school, you told me you had goals and plans for the future," I tell her and begin to stand up but then sit back down next to her.

"Yeah Jack, I had plans. But plans change. I wanted a new plan, a new plan with you," she desperately says and I know the only way to get my point across is the hard way. I need to break her heart into a million pieces if I want her to do what's best for her.

"Well my plans haven't, and you weren't apart of them," I say harshly and look down at my feet.

"Jack you don't mean that, I know you don't."

"But I do. I mean it. I don't want you in LA with me! I want to focus on YouTube and I don't want to be tied down. I love you, but I don't want you there," I lie and I think I'm breaking my own heart more than I'm breaking hers.

"Do you mean that? Do you really mean that? Because if you do then what was the point of staying here for the past two years when you could've been in LA, huh? What was the point Jack? Was there a reason you would send me texts about how you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me? Was there a reason that you told all your viewers about how you couldn't wait to move to LA with me? Tell me Jack, what was the point of all of it?!" She screams at me and I nearly break down, but I don't. This is what's best for her.

I stay silent, looking around trying to come up with an appropriate response to what she just said.

"Well guess what? I wish you hadn't said any of it! I wish you never had because you didn't mean any of it! I wish you hadn't said I was the love of your life, I wish you hadn't stayed these two years for me because it meant nothing this whole time! I can't believe I was so stupid. I thought every word you said was true but it was all one big lie and-" she fires but I cut her off before she can continue.