What we want

A Reason for Goodbyes.

False hope and broken promises always made. I never understood why men always do this. Why'd they choose the wrong choices instead of the great ones, I think they know but they hide and deny it all the time to make themselves feel better because if they didn't know why they chose to make those decisions they would confess themselves and make sure they'd never make the same choices again.
After everything Khylie told me yesturday at In-N-Out I made some decisions and waited a week for some answers and results. But nothing changed or seemed different it was all the same he'd come home whenever just to grab a meal or a snack,a shower, and to sleep. But when he's not busy at work when I popped up a couple times to his job he's finding something to do not to leave yet.
At first I thought it was me or I thought I was hallucinating but I had figured the only reason why he chooses to stay at work all day and night is because of his new assistant. She looked probably around my age or a bit younger and she had a very nice shape for her size and of course beautiful.
I couldn't get my intuitions on it but I knew right then and there he wanted to be with her more than me and his family.
I left his job and sometimes I sat in my car and thought to myself as I cried...Am I ugly ?
But I realize that he just do whatever he wants and when it's his fault he comes tying to fix it just to feel better and I'm through with his mind controlling games, it's time for me and Ace to move on with our lives until his father finally starts to act like my husband and his daddy.
Until then I've decided to leave and go to my moms new house in Florida he doesn't know she moved because he's been so wrapped up in his job or his assistant to take notice.
He's given me many reasons to say goodbye but I just never decided to just up and go and leave him like this but he's the reason why I can't be happy. I've made many life choices to make him comfortable and happy that I had forgotten about myself and what I want out of life, I might have what I want but I wanted my choices to be different and worth getting where I am now.
I drive home from Picking up Ace from Khylie's house and I parked to see that Quincy's car was in the driveway for the first time in like months.
But something was off I could feel it and I picked up Ace carefully because he was asleep and I didn't want to wake him, and I silently opened my door quietly as possible so Quincy couldn't hear me coming inside and a thud sound came from up the stairs and I sat Ace in his crib in the playroom and close the door in case it gets loud.
I take off my heels and walk up he stairs quietly and I wasn't quite sure if I was hallucinating but I had heard a few moans coming from our guest room.
I immediately opened the door to find Quincy having sex with his assistant who I knew he was cheating on me with and some other girl that was half naked.
They hadn't noticed me until the half naked girl went off the both and saw me and fell to the floor.
"Daddy Q, who's this?"
He looks at me with his eyes wide open.
"She here for a threesome?" The girl asks looking drunkily.
"No, uh um girls I'll be just a minute I just need-"I cut him off.
"FUCK YOU QUINCY, I JUST FUCKING KNEW YOU WERE STILL CHEATING ON ME, WHY'D YOU EVEN MARRY ME IF YOU KNEW YOUR SUOUD ASS WAS GOING TO DO THIS AGAIN IM TIRED OF YOUR FUCKING MIND GAMES IM DINE IM FUCKING LEAVING YOU AND IM TAKING ACE!!" I yelled at him.
"Honey" he says.
"NO FUCKK YOU AND GO FUCK YOUR FUCKING ASSISTANT SOME MORE SINCE SHE'S OBVIOUSLY WHAT YOU WANT NOW!!" I says getting a little emotional, "AND BITCH I HOPE YOU CATCH SOMETHING FROM FUCKING MARRIED MEN AND THINKING ITS OKAY AND ITS OKAY?!!" I yelled at the two girls.
The Assistant said "Well tell your fucking husband to keep his dick in his pants and not inside me okay, and second of all if I catch something you'd have something too boo?" She smirks.
"BITCH HAHA YOU SOUND ABOT DUMB AS FUCK BECAUSE WE HAVEN'T FUCKED EVER SINCE I GAVE BIRTH TO HIS SON SO WHO'S THE DUMB BITCH NOW!!"
"Why are you yelling babe! Like it's not like this was the first time we've fucked?!" She yells and laughs.
"What?" I looked curiously as to what she meant.
"Wow, like you didn't know babes haha...We've fucked at least a million times?" "We fucked in your bathroom, your kitchen, your living room, oh yeah also your room including the extra house out back Ouuu how amazing his dick felt inside me making me so horny... I think we might do it again sometime how do you like that?" She says as she makes a moan looking face licking her fingers seductively.
"FUCK YOU BITCH, I HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE LIFE IN HELL OR PROBABLY FARHER THAN HELL AND YOU TOO QUINCY IM DONE OFFICIALLY!" I say as I began walking out the door.
But before I can even leave out the door Quincy comes walking fast towards me with a bit of anger in his eyes.
"BITCH WHO YOU THINK YOU WALKING OUT ON!" He grabs me forcefully.
"Q-Quincy let go...Your..your hurting me!!" I yell.
He grabs me and starts tugging at my shirt and rips them off. I screamed in terror of what he was going to do to me, and the two girls did nothing but watched.
"QUINCY NO! NO! NOOOOOOOO!!!" I yell crying my eyes out seeing him rip off my pants and undergarments and inserts himself into me.
"STOOOOOPPP IT!! WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO YOUR WIFE!!!" I cried as he was slowly stroking me.
"FUCKK YOU! I thought you'd never hurt your family" I say before giving up because he had me, I was broken.
The other half naked girl walked out of the room and left I don't know where but I was more focused on Quincy and his assistant to even care about her anymore.
Next thing I knew me and Quincy began fighting and his assistant did nothing to help me , Quincy had then began to get me in my stomach and my back making me squirm and huddle up trying to dodge his punches from hurting me anymore than it was.
And he grabbed me and started to choke me and I kicked him in his balls and tried to run but he caught up to me holding himself  as tightly as he could to prevent it from happening again.
I tried getting out of his grip and he banged my head against the wall and my vision was blurry and I couldn't walk straight, that's when the other half naked girl ran inside the room saying the house was on fire and I heard a lot of screams as I tried getting up losing my balance...thats when I had thought about Ace downstairs but I couldn't get myself to get up so I yelled to Quincy but he kept ignoring me and pushed me out of the window so we could jump out but I kept trying to force my way back.
"QUINCY MY BABYY ACE!! HE'S STILL INSIDE THE HOUSE SLEEPING OH MY GOD PLEASE NOOOO!!!" I cried aloud.
"WHATTT!! NOO ACE !! MY SON !!" He yelled.
And that's when the house blew up in flames and I looked at the house in shock at what had happened and I just couldn't believe my flesh and blood was gone inside a fire. I was completely devastated I couldn't hold myself together.
"SEE WHAT YOU DID QUINCY!!!" "YOU KILLED OUR SON BECAUSE YOU WANTED TO CHEAT AND LIE!! AND HURT US !" "NOW MY BABY IS GONE FOREVER!!!" I cried out trying not to kill him.
I ran to the nearest house and called the police, my parents, and Khylie to tell them what just happened and the police and ambulance and so did Khylie arrived quickly.
I cried onto Khylie and wondered to myself that I should have just said goodbye and left, and I just had to fight him then maybe they would of blew up instead of my son.
My Ace didn't deserve to die yet, I feel like it's myself to blame when it's not. This is the complete Nightmare I'd always thought I'd never had to face and yet bad things always happen to me.

I quickly tried to clear my head of violent thoughts but just the hatred i had right then towards Quincy and the two other girls i just had to clear my head and think about how this could of happened. At first i wanted to blame all three of them because they deserved it, but i had to come out of my ignorance and be reasonable about every detail that had led to this.

I needed to analyse everything from step by step. There was no way this was an accident it was to coincidental for something like this to happen when i came to my house with Ace.

I wanted to blame everybody even Khylie because i was just Hurting, i know of course it wasn't her because why would she murder her own bestfriend and my child. She was in shock to find out what happened to Ace, she even cried holding her daughter in her arms tightly.

I went to Khylie's place after everything that happened, gladly i told Quincy to put insurance on the house the day we had bought it in case something happens. Now, i miss that house more than ever because it had my son's life inside there forever. I don't know how i'm going to move pass this but first i'm going to start by divorcing Quincy and i'll see from there what happens after.