D.
Thirty minutes. That's all the time we had to talk.
Silence began our conversation, but before I knew it words were flooding out of my mouth. What I had wanted to tell you for months finally came out.
We're strangers now, but yet we're still so much more than that. When I heard your voice, it felt so warm and familiar... but I could sense the fear. You weren't supposed to talk to me, but you did.
Now I don't know where to go from here.
There's this deep sorrow in my heart, knowing you don't still feel the same way but that someday you could. Someday you could if you had the chance to get to know me again.
But you don't.
You don't have that chance.. or at least not now.
But this pain is becoming unbearable. I don't know what to do.
I can't imagine seeing you for the last time.
I can't imagine looking into your eyes for the last time.
I can't imagine hearing your voice for the last time.
I can't imagine seeing your smile for the last time, or hearing you laugh for the last time.
I can't imagine living the rest of my life without you.
As I write these words, I'm hating myself for being this vulnerable. But I can't bottle up my emotions or suppress my thoughts anymore. I need to let it out.
I don't know what the future has in store.. that's where faith and trust comes in.
Whether or not our paths intersect somewhere down the road, it'll be okay.. eventually. You have endless possibilities waiting before you. Make the most of it. Live free.
Just keep going.
S.
