I thought it only fitting to write another update considering how much had happened since I wrote the last one.
I cannot believe where I am today. I cannot believe that, after everything, after all this time, I'm okay. I'm okay without you. I've actually moved on. I've actually fallen in love again,
with someone new,
someone I never saw coming,
someone I trust.
Loving you was suffocating,
but loving him is like a breath of fresh air.
I never thought that I could love anyone after loving you.
I spent almost five years loving you.
I spent almost five years waiting for you, content with just a glance or a smile or a nod of acknowledgment from across the room. I waited almost five years to be with you. And when we could finally be together, you were a thousand. miles. away.
But him? He's here, currently maybe a hundred feet away, but he's here. He loves me in ways you never could have. He has opened my eyes and my heart to so much. And every day I'm thankful to love and be loved by him.
I thank God every day for him.
So, I wish you the best. Really, I do. Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, I pray that God will bless you and lead you on.
And for the last time, goodbye.
