gangster love

a year ago

alexis

I closed my eyes ready to tell a story that I haven't told anyone except my family.i tock a breath and started

so it happened about a year I tried to kill my self. I was depressed and suicidal I never talk about it to anyone I count I had not one to talk to or that's what I felt like.

so about two years ago we had new people who joined the gang they were all checked out or that's what we thought. we did back ground checks we and then put them in the streets and had test done not everyone passed but many did the ones who didn't passed well we did what we had to do.but there was this one guy who was out standing who passed everything and didn't fail anything got everything perfect, his name was Justen.

he went far in the gang by last year he was one of my fathers right hand man and my boyfriend. he cared for me and loved me or that's what I thought .we dated for almost two years we told each other everything and I told him some of the most biggest secrets some of the things that still effect me to this me to this day and my biggest regrets, he was my first love my first everything I would get so scared for him when he would go with my father do jobs and I would never get like that, for no one but there was just something about him.

but everything happy has to come to an end things started falling apart shipments were getting stolen people were dying and copes were getting to are ware houses we were losing millions.we new there was a rat so we tried fining out who it was but nothing was working though. my father needed help so was going to have a meeting with my brothers and uncle in Mexico. Justin offered to go but my father wanted him to stay and help me here he seemed mad but soon that night all we did was fight for everything I new he was mad he couldn't go so I just went to bed I was tired of fighting.

I wasn't ready for what was going to happen that night

when I would go to bed by my self I would always get nightmares,so tried to stay up I just didn't want to deal with that tonight till I fell a sleep but later that night I felt some one crawl in to my bed I new it was Justin I turned around with a smile on my face ready to see his face but instead there was a guy in a mask I kick him and tried to fight him off till he stabbed a needle into my side.

I soon got up to a cold cement floor with bars I slowly tried to get up and quickly fell to the floor I was drugged I couldn't walk so I crawled to the bars to look out to see were I was I look out to see a hallway with so many doors I could hear people breathing others were here I seen I bright light peek through the door down the hall as a group of men came through the door I quickly crawled to the end of the cell

as they open the cell a large man in all black entered the cell and came down to look me into my face and whispered into my ear

look at you all weak your worthless and pathetic now you will feel what my broth went through.

as he said that he smiled at me and one of his teeth had a gold capsule on it as soon as I seen that I new who he was he was one of the triplet brothers they have been trying to tack us over for years. we killed on of them before he tried stealing one of are biggest shipments and he wouldn't give us the location of his brothers so we killed him.

Alexis I know who you are Steven

Steven oh so you do now who I am

Alexis yeah I do and do you now who i am

Steven yeah I do your Alexis the daughter of brad

Alexis so you do now him and so you do now he is on his way right now and he will kill you just like he killed your brother have you ever seen a grown man cry and beg for his life begging for us to let him go

as soon as I said that he started beating me I was to weak to fight back then he did something I wasn't ready for he pushed me to the floor and got tape and tied my hands up and did horrible things .when he was done he lifted me up like I was nothing I could feel the blood from my lip and bruise forming all over my body he grabbed me by my face and all I could do is close my eyes waiting for him to hit again or do what ever he wanted to do

Steven I know your father is in Mexico for a week he thinks your at home right now with your boyfriend

he throw me to the floor all I could think about was justien and what they could be doing to him I needed to now if he was dead so I used my energy and I stood up and lunged for him as his men grabbed me

Alexis what did you do with Justin

Steven aww your worried about him that's sweet only if he was worried about you

as he said that a man was standing in the door I looked at him and couldn't believe my eyes Justin was standing there he walked to me and that when I new he was the rat

Alexis it was you your the rat oh my god your the other brother

Justin I am sorry I really do care about you but business come first

I couldn't do it I walked to the corner and just sat down I didn't cry I just stared at the floor you cant show fear to your enemies you cant let the see you cry.the only thing that was running throw my mind was that I'm going to die here.