gangster love

lost

Monsters are real, They live in side us, And sometimes, They win-unknown  

Liam 

at the house 

as the cold water hit my back I couldn't think of any thing I couldn't feel anything but anger I look to my hands all I see is her blood dripping of my hands as images of her dying in my arm to the video of them beating her keep going in and out of my head I couldn't take it I get out the shower and get ready to go talk to her dad I just look in the mirror as I look at my self I just get filled with anger I couldn't help my self my anger just built up so I punched the mirror hard as I could the glass shattered and hit the floor I look down to see the broken pieces I can feel the blood starting to drip from my fist I didn't care I couldn't go see her father like this so I new what to do I went down to the warehouse and went to the gym I looked at the punching bag and just started punching everything around me was  blurry I couldn't think or feel anything  I heard someone come in but I didn't care I just keep hitting till they pushed me making me get out of my position 

Jacob what are you doing her Liam 

Liam what the fuck was that for 

Jacob look at you your a mess you need to take care of your self for Alexis she is going to need you when she wakes up

Liam SHE MIGHT NEVER WACK UP 

Jacob we cant give up hope 

Jacob and she wouldn't want you to do this to your self 

I look down to see my fist bleeding and turning black and blue on my knuckles 

Liam even If she does its not going to be the same 

Jacob I now its not but she will get better 

Liam NO ITS FUCKEN NOT WE LOST A FUCKEN CHILDED JACOBE 

I couldn't do it, anger filled my eyes again and I started to punch the bag again even harder and faster I couldn't think or do anything I just need to get my anger out then I felt Jacob grabbed me from behind and just hug me yelling 

Jacob stop Liam you need to stop your going to hurt your self, everything going be okay 

I couldn't hold it anymore I fell to my knees with sadness and anger 

Jacob its okay let it out its okay 

I dont know how long we sat there but we made are way to a bench in the room I stayed looking down looking at my feet and my bruised hands I look to Jacob he is lost in his thought's 

Liam why did you help me 

Jacob because you need to let it out or it would have killed you I know everyone thinks were so cold and heartless but the truth is we are only like this because of the shit we have had to face we all have are demons or shit we regret and if we dont let them out they will kill us 

Liam  was someone there for you 

Jacob yeah Alex and Alexis we were all facing are own shit and we held each other up if it wasn't for them I probly would be dead 

Liam thank you for helping me 

Jacob look Liam if she doesn't wack up you are going to have to be the new leader and you are also in charge till she wacks up 

Jacob what are you talking about 

Jacob its how its always been for gangs,mafias everything if the leader dies and there father or mother has stepped down the wife or husband has to become leader if they didn't not have a child to tack over I know you to where not married but your the second choice at least till this hole mess is figured out  

Liam I cant run a gang I never have before

 Jacob you have work as leader before

Liam I had Alexis but doing it on my own 

Jacob ill be there to help you 

something clicked as I was running the thought of being leader if I was leader then I could find who di this faster 

Liam fine call a meeting in 30 minuites im going to go chang 

I went home to enter the bathroom I look into the same shattered mirroir the glass that was still on the wall was cracked and brocken I looked at my self 

Liam dont let them see you brocken 

I took a breath and walked out ready to start being a leader for them 

Alexis 

everything Is dark I cant see a thing I try to open my eyes but they just wont open could I be dead 

Alexis I'm I dead 

Elisabeth no your not baby 

Alexis mom is that you 

Elisabeth yes it is baby how are you doing

Alexis oh my god I miss you I'm so sorry for not saving you its my fault you died its all my fault im so sorry 

Elisabeth Alexis its not your fault it was just my time to go im sorry my time was so short but you had your father and brother there for you and now you have that boy 

Alexis oh my god Liam he must be so worried 

Elisabeth listen you need to wakeup for you and baby okay 

Alexis my what 

Elisabeth I love you so much but I have to go tell everyone I love them good bye I love you see you soon and Alexis never let that boy go he's good for you 

Alexis no please dont say good bye not yet please mom  

hello everyone im am really sorry for not posting for so long but so many things came up and I just couldn't add chapters so please forgive me but I have a three day weekend so hopefully I will  add some chapters so thank you for waiting and hope you like the story so far