gangster love

a year ago part 3

after being carried out of that house I only remember pieces of what happened after that. I remember hearing voices and people yelling, I remember the car that they laid me in the back seat. I could remember them saying you'll be okay, don't close your eyes .but deep down I new I wasn't going to be okay.as I laid in the back seat I was so tired I didn't even try to keep my eyes open so I closed then I was ready to die I have given up at that point.

the next thing I now is that I was in a big white room.there was a window in that room it was open a little I could see a huge tree,the tree was beautiful and it was about to rain or that's what it looked,the clouds were black and you could smell the rain in the little bit of air that was coming into the room. I looked around to see Jacob laying on the floor next to me.

I tried to say something to tell him that  I'm a wake .but nothing could come out of my mouth,but then I bust into tears I couldn't hold it in it just came out.then Jacob jumped up hugging me. he kept telling me its going to be okay ,I am safe.but deep down I new everything was not okay . he never let go of me in till I stopped crying but right after he let go of me I fell sleep again

when I woke up again my brother and father were in the room they were talking to the doctor I tried talking again and I finally could get the words out.

Alexis were is Jacob 

Alex your a wake 

father we sent him home he was here all night.how do you feel

Alex yeah do you feel better 

Alexis I feel like crap when can I go home

father today were tacking you home but your going to be resting for a while okay

I went home later that day when I did get home I went strait to my room I didn't talk to anyone I couldn't I just wanted to sleep.

It was about two weeks after I was found people came to see  me my family came down to see me. Jacob would come and see me everyday to talk and see how I was doing he was one of the only people who didn't ask what happened to me and I thanked him for that.

Alexis how was every one well I was gone 

Jacob everyone was sad and upset but your father and brother were broken 

Alexis what do you mean 

Jacob well your broth would stay up for day with out sleep to find you,I would help him search for you and I would tell him to get some sleep ill keep looking but he wouldn't he would only get angry.one night he couldn't handle it so he got so drunk he couldn't walk I had to help back to his room but he told me he didn't now what to do with his life what if they never find you he cried to me that night about how your were his other half and now your gone and he wont be able to handle it if they don't find you.

I was so out of words I couldn't think of what to say 

Jacob and your father he was so depressed yeah he had people there for him but he was just so depressed he couldn't ever run the gang for some time 

Alexis wow thank you for being there for them I could never repay you 

Jacob your my bestfriend of course I would help them and help you I love you and i don't want anything to happen to you again.now get some sleep okay you need to rest 

as I fell a sleep that night thinking of what I put then through.

that morring I decided I need to go talk to then I want to say I'm sorry and maby talk about what happened but when I went by my fathers office I wasn't ready for whqat I heard 

Alex hes still alive they both are 

father how are they alive we killed them 

Alex yeah that's what we thought,and they were here this morning they were seen on the camera's but got away before we could get them 

father well we need to find them and keep Alexis safe and she cant now about this 

Jacob we shouldn't hide this from her it could make things worries if she finds out 

Alex we will tell her  when the time is wright but for now we keep it to are self 

I couldn't stay and hear the rest I should have but I couldn't. I ran to my room and locked the door I couldn't handle it I ran yo my window and it was raining I has been raining for about a week I sat at the window crying I couldn't stop everything was coming back to me.what happened, what they did to me, what I put my family through, my mother how I need her right there,and I couldn't handle it so decided to do what felt right.

I walked to  my bathroom and I grabbed a bottle of pills that the doctor gave me for pain and I took them all I sat in the bathtub and I just closed my eyes thinking about everything and how I have lost, how I cant keep going,how I am broken...and than that's the last thought I had before I closed my eyes ready to die 

I woke up in the same room I was in when they found me,are family  nurse was checking on me

Alexis where am I 

nurse at the doctor you were found all most dead Jacob found you and helped bring you in.

Alexis they should have left me there 

nurse don't say that.lession to me

what she told me next is what stuck with me even to this day. 

nurse I will never now what happened to you to you but your stronger then this you are a survivor,I have been your family doctor for years I have see you guys lose so many people and you have survived so I know you will come back from this if you cant do it for your self do it for her she doesn't want to see you like this. I don't either neither does your family they all love you.

as she finish talking my father brother and Jacob ran through the door crying asking why did you do this.so I told them everything to what happened to what they did to me and how I'm hurt them and how I just couldn't handle it but I'm am sorry.

Liam 

I looked at her well she finished telling the story with tears running down her cheek so I grabbed her an hugged her with everything I had.

Liam did they ever find them 

Alexis  no they didn't 

Liam well I am not the same I would never do that to you I would tack care of you.

Alexis how do I know your telling the truth 

Liam because I love you Alexis 

Alexis now you don't 

Liam yes I do your beautiful and caring and I love you even with your flaws they are what make you so great 

Alexis ....... Liam 

Liam please let me tack you on a date and if you don't like it then I will never ask again 

Alexis okay I will go on one date 

I'm sorry for publishing this so late guys but I had a lot to deal with with school but now I am on break so ill try to post a least two  a week so hope you guys like the story thank you guys for everything