Abandoned Heart•Lin Manuel Miranda x reader•Linnamon Roll

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Lin, you took my heart, and broke it.
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I woke up at 8:17. Practice was LONG yesterday, and we also had to learn the steps for act 2. God, I have to see HIM again tomorrow. I deserve a break.( Especially since Lin broke something else... sorry not sorry) I brewed some coffee, and I fed Selma. Oh! Before going to bed, Selma's cage was delivered before I got back, and so did all her other stuff. I built it last night, but I kept the boxes, because Selma liked to crawl in there and hide strawberry seeds. (Guys, If you want to know what Selma looks like, scroll down.)

I put the boxes in Jordyn's room, since she won't be coming back for a long time. My phone vibrated. I took it out, and it was a message from a group chat I made called 'Hamilfam'. Lin wasn't in it because- Jonathan texted me back! FINALLY. "We're downstairs, and the doorkeeper is asking us for some sort of 'code' for ur placeeee." The doorkeeper and I have a secret bond, so when someone asks to go to my place,
She asks for the 'code'. "Don't laugh." I typed (You used to work on the same staff. Jk) I typed it in."DeerzzOnSteroids." As soon as I typed that in, the doorkeeper, Angie, texted me. "Oyy, did u want them to come up?" I smiled down. I don't know why I said that, because no one will see me smile. Except Selma. "Let it rip."

A few minutes later, the doorbell rang. Good thing it wasn't deafening, because Selma would have fallen off the table. I opened the door. Everyone poured into my house. It's good that only Groff,Anthony,Daveed,Oak,Jazzy, and Renee came, because the floor would have broke if EVERYBODY came. Anthony and Daveed were playing with the Selma. When Daveed laid his head on my counter, Selma walked right into it like it was some sort of tunnel. Fortunately, She walked out of there, so Daveed didn't have to untangle his hair or something. Groff was comforting me about the Lin-has-a-gf thing. "It's okay girl, Lin doesn't deserve you anyways. He'll come crawling back to you. I know it."Everyone was sending me good vibes, but it didn't work. "Thanks Jonathan, but I don't think Lin would give up his relationship with his girlfriend. She's pretty, she has a beautiful voice, she seemed really nice to Lin before I was there. They make a cute couple."  They all looked at me with a really weird look. It was a mix of 'you can't be serious' and 'Lin is a freaking dumb ass.' Jazzy decided to  speak up. "Y/n. Get your head out of the clouds! Find someone who wouldn't kiss you, ignoring the thought of his girlfriend! You'll find someone perfect. I think s- no, I know so." She pointed at me, and bopped my nose. "Boop." Everyone laughed. I'm in my happy place.

Renee took us to Starbucks and bought us frappes. Daveed got the unicorn Frappe. He took a sip, and made a unicorn horn out of the paper that used to cover the straw. I took a picture, and posted it on snapchat. I checked if anyone replied back, but then I ran into Lin's contact. He had sent me a message just after the incident. I didn't want to see it, or I would have to text him back. I looked anyway.

💩LinManMiran💩: Please, come to my house. I need some explaining to do.

Should I- no. It's just another trick.

😜😜Yyy_Nnn:You can't have everything in life Lin. That's what you have taught me.

I closed my phone. I'm pretty sure the expression on my face changed, because Daveed noticed something wrong." Hey, y/n, you okay?" He squeezed my hand, which comforted me. "Yeah, it's just, Lin texted me to come to his hou-" He squeezed my hand harder. "On my opinion, I'd probably come to his house, but it's your decision. Whatever your choice is, I'll support you." I smiled back at Daveed." Thanks." I slowly let go of his hand, and took my frappe. Before leaving, I waved back at everyone, and kissed Daveed on the cheek. He's good at pep-talks.(Can't we just go with Daveed instead? Jk)

I drove to Lin's house. Luckily, I haven't made any mistakes since I have started driving, so no one noticed that I didn't have a driver's licence. I parked just outside of Lin's apartment. I said hello to Lin's doorkeeper. We know each other already, because when Lin got drunk, I had to drag his ass home.
I pressed the elevator button, and as soon as I stepped in, I got butterflies in my stomach. Their wings flapped faster every time we got closer to Lin's door. As soon as I was right in front of it, my stomach was crazy triggered. (Yes, your stomach has emotions now, apparently)

I held my fist right in front of his door. I knew that if I knock, there was no turning back. That's why my inner consciousness is holding me back. 'Y/n, if you go now, you wouldn't have a chance with Davee- oops, wrong fanfic-' while inner me was busy trying to find out the plot for this Wattpad story, I knocked on the door. I heard footsteps heading towards the door. A very messy Lin with ice cream stains on his shirt answered the door. He looked around, then he looked at me. "Oh. It's just y/n- Y/N!" He took his ice cream stained shirt off, and tackled/hugged me down onto the floor. "Uhh, Lin, I need answers." I tried to pry him off me, but his legs felt like they were glued onto my hips. I felt like a giant teddy bear, and Lin was a kid that didn't want to let go.

After realizing that I wasn't attacked by Lin, I tried asking him a few questions. "Lin? Can I stand back up again? And also, why are you so messy?" Lin frowns. He helps me back up. "After you left crying, Connie broke up with me because she thought that I was cheating on he-" I slapped his shirt out of his hands."Did you just make me come over here to tell me that your relationship with your girlfriend is over because of ME!?"
I turned around to leave, but he grabbed the back of my shirt. "Wait! Let me finish! After she broke up with me, I realized how much of an ass I have been to you. I only climbed on you, because Connie and I have been growing apart, and I didn't want her anymore. Then I found you, and toyed with your emotions.
Ok sorry." He pulled me closer, still pulling at the back of my shirt. I took his hand off of the strap "Thanks for explaining." My voice cracked. I was crying, and tears were dripping down my face. It's a good thing I don't wear makeup. "Wait, y/n, are you cryi-" the elevator door closed before he got to finish the sentence.

##At yo house bruh##
I locked the door and put my back
against it. I slid down onto the floor and put my hands on my forehead. It was getting pretty hot. You put down the frappe from Renee, If you guys are wondering where you kept the frappe, since Lin ta- it was in the car. And started texting the group chat. You hear something slide down the door, and a muffled voice. "Y/n, please, please open up."

Is it a question of IF Lin or which one? Sorry guys, I was listening to Winter's ball. Anyways,

Nighttttt
~Gaby