The Bully

A Start Of Something New

A FEW YEARS AGO:

Dear diary,

I'm Taylor and I am twelve years old. Not living the best life...that's why I bought this diary. I need to write down my emotions. "buT yOu'rE onLy tWeLwE yEArs oLd, sTop coMPLaiNinG!!!11!1!" yeah yeah shut up.

First day of the seventh grade today and I must say I'm pretty excited to see my classmates again. Well...some of them. I do get along with them and no one particularly hates me, but I still feel like I'd fit in better with class A. Why did they put me in B, when all the nice people are in A? The bullies in my class are constantly telling me stuff like:"Oh you emo freak, where did you cut yourself today?" That sometimes doesn't affect me at all, but sometimes it does a bit. Being half a year clean from cutting, I must say things aren't that bad anymore. No, I don't cut because of the bullies, but I did because of the situation at home with my strict parents, who never seem to agree on things. Okay, never mind, I'll stop complaining now.

I wait in the hallway and start greeting people. Nothing new happened to my schoolmates during the summer holidays, but my crush Matt got even cuter. Ah, I can't wait to talk to him after two and a half months again!

The bell rings and we walk to our classes. The school hasn't changed much too...the walls are the same, the halls are the same, but there are some new teachers and new faces of course. We wait for the teachers in front of our classes, so I have time to greet my friends from the class A. "What's up girls! Natalie, Nellie, Mary, May, Nancy, Kathy! How are you all?" They turn around and happily hug me. Nellie sticks to me like a tick and she says:"Taylor you have no fucking idea how awful things just got!" I don't bother her being glued to me and it's not really a new thing, so I just look at the other girls:"What's wrong? You seem excited, but worried at the same time..." Natalie attempts to take Nellie off me, while May frowns:"We got a new classmate..." I giggle at their stupidity:"Girls, come on! You will get along perfectly! Where is she?" I look around and try to see the new face. But all I see is just the usual class A girls...what's new? Kathy's lips form into a straight line as she quietly says:"I'll have to tell you it's a he..." Oh, that makes a bit more sense. I look at the group of guys and scan them...still no new faces. "But why is it such a big deal? You never know, maybe he is cute and one of you will fall in love and live happily ever after with him..." I still try to state my point, but Nellie finally lets go of me and points to the guy standing alone:"Don't you fucking get it?" Now I really do get it. Rick. One of the worst guys ever. I've heard a lot about him from my friends and I know that he's not the guy to mess around with. The more I think about it...I'm not even that surprised that he failed the class.

I see our teacher walking through the hallway:"Gotta go, our teacher's coming. See ya later girls and good luck with that...dude." Mary looks at him, who is moodily observing his new classmates:"I think we're gonna need it yeah."

I run to our classroom and as I enter I see a new face in our class too. What is Kellin doing here!? Please don't tell me he failed...not that guy! He is so annoying and the whole school knows him, because of his attention seeking fuckboy attitude...still better than Rick tho.

We stand up when the teacher steps inside and then sit down when she lets us. She's a pretty nice teacher if I compare her to the others that teach us. "Good morning, I hope you all enjoyed the summer holidays. As you can see, we have a new face in the class. Would you like to introduce yourself?" Mrs. Parker says and Kellin replies:"Nope." He is trying to be the class clown, but that's not gonna work. "Kellin, please, don't mess up the first day." Mrs. Parker begs him and Kellin chuckles:"Okay, okay. I'm Kellin Kirk and yeah...I'm pretty hot." Mrs. Parker rolls her eyes:"Sit down Kellin." Then she starts talking about everything we'll be doing this school year. She explains all the events and trips, which sound pretty nice.

When the first day is over, I see Natalie and Nancy talking outside. I approach them and ask the obvious:"So, how's Rick?" Natalie covers her face with her hands and whines:"Don't even get me started!" At first I think that she's developing a crush on him or she will just start complaining. The second option was the right one. She starts:"He can't stay quiet for a second! The boys are already friends with him because of how 'cool' and 'brave' he is. That dude sucks." I'm surprised by her extreme reaction and I reply:"Then I guess we're lucky we won't have to deal with him."

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So, this will be a story...a personal story. I don't even know why I'm writing it, but I just feel like putting the feelings into words, so that I can make this thing at least a bit easier for myself. Of course I'll change the names and some things, but to my real life friends: if you recognize the people...just be quiet about it okay? If I gave you my Wattpad account, I expect you won't tell anyone about anything I write. This can be something like a trust test, as no one else knows about this whole thing. So I'm begging you to be quiet.
Okay. Now, to make something clear: I am not seeking attention with this story. I just want to put my personal experience into words as I already said, so just think of this story as any other one. Thanks for understanding.
And I'm sorry for not updating Brother's Path that much, but I still need to figure out some things for that book.