NaytNayt's Short Stories

Pain

When will these tears stop running?
When will I stop weeping and crying?
When will the pain end?
When will my broken heart mend?

Too many questions running through my head,
Too many pain waiting for me and my heart ahead,
All I can do is cry until I fall asleep,
All I can do is weep in my sleep.

Everything I do is useless
Everything I say is a lie
Everything I am is a big mistake
Everything is wrong.

Sometimes I think of ending it,
But I'm scared that death I will meet,
I want to end everything,
But how?

How, when there are still people caring for me,
How when it is a sin to the Father above,
How when I'm scared,
How when I simply can't?

In death I can finally peace
In death I can finally be free
In death I can be happy
In death everything will be at its place once again.

Living in this world is hard,
Living with emotional pain is unbearable,
Living without no one loving me is bearable,
Living without Him is not.

I always tell myself,
To be yourself.
But no matter how hard I try,
To be kind and not cry,
I always end up weeping and crying my heart out,
In the corner with while covering the sobs from my mouth.

I wish I can make it,
I wish I can still take it,
I wish I can end the pain,
Everytime I hear the pouring of the rain.

Pain is my bestfriend,
Pain is living within me,
Pain is trying to fit
In a world you can never meet.

Sorry for being me,
Sorry for being born,
Sorry for being someone you don't want,
Sorry for living.

I promise this will be the last,
The last time you'll hurt me,
The last time I'll disgrace you,
The last time I'll breath.

I will forever remember the pain,
The pain you gave and made me feel,
The pain you showered me,
The pain that scarred my young heart and mind.

I'll end this now,
Worry no more,
I will be gone,

Forever.