Thorns And Roses

Kabanata 5

Kabanata 5

I had a silly dream. In my dreams, Doc Valderama and I kissed that night under the stars. He was just looking at me and then something shifted and he leaned in for a kiss.

Akala ko'y totoo pero panaginip lang pala at ilusyunada lang ako. I hate to say this but I think I've started having a tiny little crush for him.

He was so good to me. He'd join me for breakfast, lunch and sometimes dinner ebcause no one wanted to. I even heard some of his colleagues talking about that, saying he was nuts for joining a killer in the table but he didn't seem to mind.

We talked almost every day when I'm in the mood about random things, naipasok na rin niya ako kahit papaano sa ibang activities. Walang tumatabi sa 'kin at nakikipag-usap pero siya? He'd stay and watch me, encourage me to pick the paper, saying he'll be just there and that it will be fine.

I somehow liked the art class...but I think I like him better.

I was silly. It was a crazy idea.

Impossibleng magustuhan ako ni Thorn? He was my doctor for Pete's sake! Liking me meant risking his license. He's a professional.

Ako lang itong nangangarap ng gising...siguro dahil nagustuhan at natuwang mabuti siya sa 'kin.

The next days, I woke up bathing with my own sweat again. Hindi ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman. The dream I dreamt of today was a man, that man who shot my parents.

I saw in my dreams how he laughed after that. Lumakad pa siya at nagulat ako nang buksan niya ang cabinet kung nasaan ako nagtatago at itinutok sa akin ang baril.

I was shaking that time, patuloy na tumutulo ang luha sa mga mata ko when Doc came. I saw how he took the gun from the man and I keep on screaming.

"Scira!" Thorn screamed and the moment I went out from where I was hiding, I saw the man pointing the gun in his direction.

"Doc!" I screamed at the top of my lungs and I heard a loud gun shot at napaupo ako nang makitang nasa lupa na si Doc habang nakatingin sa akin at nakahawak sa dibdib niya.

"R-run..." he whispered in a soft, sad voice.

"N-no..." I screamed and that's when I woke up.

Tulala ako habang kumakain ng pagkain. That just keeps on bothering me. I am scared not just for myself but also for his safety.

What if... They'd get him involved? Paano kung mapahamak siya dahil sa akin?

He wasn't here while I was eating breakfast kaya kinakabahan ako. I remembered my dreams again.

"Scira, pinapatawag ka ni Dra. Lim..." I came back from my reverie when I saw Nurse Dhelmira in front of me.

"Ako?" I asked. She smiled and nodded.

"Halika, inom ka muna tubig tapos akyat tayo," she told me.

"Sige..." I nodded a little. Uminom muna ako ng tubig bago sumama sa kanila. Nurse Alexis was also there, ngumiti siya nang makita ako at tumango sa akin.

I saw my nurses pagkalabas pero hindi nila ako inimik at hinayaan akong isama noong dalawa.

"Nurse," I called Nurse Dhelmira's attention.

"Bakit?" She smiled at me.

"Uhm, do you know where Doc Thorn is?" I asked her.

"Hindi ako sure eh, pero hindi ko pa siya nakikita simula kanina," she told me. "Bakit? Miss mo na?"