Warnings: SPOILERS FOR INFINITY WAR AND RAGNAROK, Swearing, arguments, mentions of sex, sadness n stuff.
You could remember what love felt like.
It felt like both of the people in love were crazy, not caring about the future. People who chose to live in the now.
You could remember the smell of him, how sweet it was. The feeling of his lips, which were warm and soft. His kisses always seemed to be filled with passion and unbridled love.
You remembered the intimate nights you both shared. They would last till the dead of night, but for you it felt like time had frozen still.
Now all you seem to be experiencing is the mind numbing sound of silence with the occasional empty "I love you."
His sweet smell ran sour, his lips now cold and chappy. The once passionate kisses turned into bland pecks to the mouth before work began.
The intimate nights turned into chaos as the yelling, crying, and heartbreak began.
But he remembers too.
He remembers the giggle of his love. The sweet melodies that filled his ears. The warm feeling it gave his heart.
He remembers the loving embrace he could return to after every hard day. The steady heartbeat of his one and only being the only thing that could ground him to the Earth.
Her tender touches and caresses always had seemed warm. When her warm fingertips would play in his hair or give him a pleasure no other woman could provide him.
But the giggles stopped one day.
The embraces no longer were given.
Her heartbeat seemed still, even while it was still beating.
She ran cold as well.
He wished it didn't end this way....
You spent the day cleaning the house up even though you had no reason to. As you cleaned, the constant thought of why you stayed still lingered. Perhaps you hoped something was still there.
You hadn't seen Thor in months. He disappeared. You didn't know if he was dead or not. The thought worried you, even if he seemed like a distant memory it frightened you.
In the midst of your cleaning, you saw a orange hue fill the living room. You whip your head around quickly. "Who the fuck are you and what are you doing in my house?" You shout out at the uninvited man, instantly engulfing your hand in flames.
He stared down at your hand, clearly umphased by your threat. "I'm Docter Stephen Strange. There is a great threat coming to earth in search of the infinity stones. His name is Thanos. We need your help. A few of your friends are involved as well, even Thor." Why did that name make you feel so wrong?
You took a moment to consider. You decided its better to be safe than sorry. You walked over with him through the gateway he opened up.
After a while, a small game plan was made. You were to go to Wakanda with Steve, Natasha, Vision, Wanda, and whoever else decided they should come.
Stephen sensed a disconnection in you and decided to speak with you. "Something's wrong. I can see it from a mile away. You're doubting something." He said, walking up behind you. You turned, meeting his gaze for a moment then returning it back to the ground.
"Just thinking about why I stay. Not why I'm on earth in a depressed way... But why do I stay with him. I loved him.... Once... but now I can't be so sure. All I seem to be thinking is, 'How could this happen?'" You ranted. Stephen didnt expect something like that.
"Im sorry to hear. I wish I was able to provide the right answer, but I can't. It's something I have yet to understand or figure out. However, I can be there for you." He responded. You smiled at him in a kind gesture.
Pretty soon you were on your way to Wakanda, but instantly thrown in a battle. Demon hounds surrounding the front of the force field, beginning to make it around the sides. T'Challa then opened a sector of the field, the hounds running in.
You began fighting, hounds surrounding you. You fought back to back with Bucky and soon were joined by Steve. You threw flames everywhere, smoking the sons of bitches to the ground or shooting a gun every few minutes if you felt exhausted.
Suddenly a hound bit your calf, causing you to fall. One by one they all seemed to pile on, but you tried to kick and shoot them off of you. In a flash they all died. You looked up to see Thor wielding an ax around, killing a whopping amount of hounds.
He saw your injured form and went over to you. You got up quickly and just smiled at him as you continued to fight. You then ran to help out Vision as Thanos began to arrive. By time you got there Wanda destroyed the stone on Visions head.
Thanos uttered some words that weren't audible to you until you realized he turned back time and pushed Wanda aside. He ripped the stone out if Visions head himself. You quickly launched yourself at Thanos, taking out the dagger on your thighs holster. You jumped onto his waist and went to stab him in the eye, but before you could you were frozen.
"Its a pity... I knew you were a fierce warrior, its a shame you die in a tasteless fashion." And with that, you felt the dagger go into your gut, twisting as it was sheathed inside you. You were silent, your mouth hung open. Gasping it was pulled out, but it was quickly pushed into your chest and got dragged down due to your squirming. He threw you to the ground.
Thor saw the whole display, feeling his heart shatter into a million pieces. He drove his ax straight into Thanos's chest. Thanos was defeated, right?
*Snap*
Within seconds Thanos was gone. Nobody knew what was happening, but Thor quickly ran to you as you felt the metallic taste of blood begin to fill your mouth. "Darling I'm here, god I'm so sorry. We can find someone in time to help you, I promise." He whispered. People watched the display from afar.
"Don't make promises you know you can't keep.... You know, before this all happened I thought you didn't love me anymore. That I didn't love you anymore. Now that this all happened, I know I still love you. Shitty timing, huh? I always was late to everything." You ended with a weak chuckle.
"No love, its never to late. I felt the same, and I hate that I only realized I love you now. When you are slipping away from me." He sobbed, tears falling freely.
"Steve?" Bucky said, dissolving into ash. Thor looked around, seeing others dissolve. He looked to you and saw you looked OK, despite the deep wounds. "Thor.... I'm sorry. I love you." You whispered, a tear running down your check.
With the strength you had left, you pulled him down for a kiss. You felt numb, like you were disappearing. In that moment, however, you felt warm again. His lips soft, and sweet. To him you were inviting once more, your embrace finally returning back to him.
As he pulled away your smile shown for mere seconds before you disappeared into ash in his hands.
"No.. No. No, no, NO, NO, NO! COME BACK, I LOVE YOU!....I.. I love you."
And finally the "I love you's" were no longer empty....
But unfortunately they were too late.
