Son Ombre

Ep 7

"Promise me you wont do anything." I tell him, waiting for the answer to appear in his eyes.

He shakes his head and looks at me. 

"please."

- "What can I do?" He asks.

I took his hand and held it close to my heart. Even through the dress you could feel my crazy heart beats.

"That's what you do." I say quietly.

He leaves his hand on my heart and smiles at me, a smile that if I saw him from the side, smiling at someone like that, then I was sure it was a smile that someonle who's in love could smile. And my cheeks burned, even after I kissed his lips, even after I was as close to him as I wasnt close to anyone before.

Then he took my hand and brought it to his chest. The beats were fast, identical to mine, so I looked into his eyes and smiled back at him.

-"I really do love you." Even if I was deaf after all the times he told me he loved me, I could read his lips and understand what he was saying.

"And the only thing that breaks my heart every time I look at you is ..." Joong-chan's voice is interrupted in the middle of the sentence as we hear the sharp turn of the horses and the carriage stops moving.

We look at each other and he grabs my neck quickly. Planting a deep kiss on my lips, I resist breaking away and he moves away but approaches again and gives me a short kiss on my lips that leaves his intoxicating taste.

- "I guess we're here." He says and I start to laugh at his serious face, he looks at me laughing as he puts his hat back on his head.

"You kissed me as if we were saying goodbye." I whisper closely and then walk away, sit down on the seat infront of him and open the curtain that was closed all this time and he hides his laughing face with his hand and then looks up at me.

"I'll never kiss you as if we're saying goodbye." He replies quietly.

I keep my eyes on him without blinking, thinking of all the moments we've had here, in this warm little carriage.

Then the carriage door opens and I see Peter.

"How are you feeling?" Peter's face smiles, especially when he speaks to the two of us but looks only at me.

I answer Peter with a smile and get off the carriage as he reaches for help, I thank him bowing.

"The ride went by pretty quick, His Majesty." deputy commander, my lover, says as he gets off the carriage and salutes Peter and then after him his commander, Kim Jae-seok, who is waiting for us.

Joog-chan's words werent caught in my mind when he spoke to Peter and told him those words. It was so different, so absolutely forbidden.

They both smiled at each other and I saw them exchanging a few words while Peter slapped his shoulder and they both laughed.

The new feeling that passed before my eyes was unpleasant and dangerous and at the same time the best I have ever felt.

That's what Peter once talked to me about. It was the limit that I was not allowed to cross as who I was, he was the man to whom I was so attracted, as Peter said in our conversation in his work room in our palace in Denmark, there would be men to whom you would find yourself attracted to, but you cant. you shouldnt.

It was a hypnotic feeling, being so in love, holding his hands and kissing his lips, feeling his breaths on my skin, letting him kiss me without anyone knowing about us. It was a hypnotic feeling to feel loved by him.