Key To My Heart [Devan Key]

New York, again?

•Shailenes POV•

As of the moment, my mind is so full and knowing of everything. And it's the best feeling, considering that before I struggled to remember anything.

Currently, Mercedes and I are sat in the cafe parking lot. Only because weren't that far from it, after *I don't even know what to call it* happened.

My heart feels so full and happy, yet I still feel as though something is missing. And it's not like a small thing, this one feels big. I just can't seem to put my finger on it.

"Do you remember anything about a boyfriend by chance?" Cedes asks out of the blue.

"Yeah." I reply without an actual explanation.

"And?" She continues.

"And what?"

"Which boyfriend??"

"Oh, right." I snap out of it, "Brad right?"

A very audible sigh left her mouth and her eyes looked sad. Though I didn't question it, her actions still made me curious.

Right before she was going to continue our conversation there was a knock on the car window, my side of course.

Looking up, I met eyes with Devan.

In the second our eyes were connected, my heart felt something unlike anything its felt before. Yet, my mind still couldn't sort it out. That's the sucky part.

I was aware of everything now so, maybe it was a little glitch in my mind. I rolled my window down, giving him more access.

The first thing that came out of his mouth was expected, "I thought you guys were going out?"

"We were..." Then Cedes and I exchanged a look, "Something came up unexpectedly."

"I'll let you take over." She unbuckles her seat belt and exits the car, implying she wants him to take her place.

He sits himself in the drivers seat, looking a little lost. An awkward silence fills the air for a good 5 minutes.

"So,'' He starts, "What happened?"

I made no eye contact with him, even though I could feel his eyes on me.

"I'm... back.'' I said softly, with the slightest smile upon my lips.

"What are you saying?" He continues to ask, obviously not understanding what I'm trying to get across.

My mind does some thinking before I can give him an answer.

"It's hard to explain and a long story."

"I've got time." He insists.

No stalling.

"Cedes and I were driving down the road and something happened, I guess you could say. You'll probably think that I've gone crazy or something, but I know what happened." For some reason, a sudden feeling of anxiety came over me.

This isn't how I usually felt talking to Devan, I just don't want him to claim I was lying or crazy.

He noticed that i'd stopped talking.

"Shailene, are you alright?"

"Uh, yeah yeah. I just don't know how to explain all of this." I reveal to him.

Staring down at my feet, I didn't realize he was reaching for my hand until his fingers brushed mine. Giving him an assuring smile, I intertwine our fingers.

Weirdly, this little action made me feel so loved. My anxiety just melted away and I felt confident.

"I remembered it all, my mind flooded with information, memories and just everything that was previously missing." Turning my head, I notice that Devans was inching closer to mine.