Fervid Desire (Good Pleasure Series #2)

Kabanata 32

Kabanata 32

After Zach introduced himself to Papa, he decided to go home because he has still business to finish. I was fine with Papa's expression, though he still did not tell that Zach was okay with him.

Zach texted me when he finally home. Tomorrow, he'll be back in schooling. I would have just taken my Masters degree so that I could get a chance to see him in every time of every day. I want to experience the things we have had not done when I was still studying.

For now, the qualm that I had for the love of Zach was defunct. I couldn't grope the reasons I have before why I should not trust him. My feelings went to something deeper, like there was no chance to stand from my stumble. The happiness I had was overflowing that almost caused a heartache. Maybe this was the feeling of being so much happy. Like your heart has been impaled with a knife of felicity that causes so much pain.

My plan to go abroad was failed because of the things I'd gone through. Though I still have a plan but not on this year. Perhaps next year, things will be okay, I just don't want to run away the problems and when I get back, it was already exacerbated.

A staccato knocked awaked me from trance. I rose and looked at the door even though I couldn't see who was the person behind it. I leapt out of bed and trudged toward the door. I clutched on the doorknob and wrenched it open. The door cricked as I slowly opened the door. I saw one of the maids.

"Ma'am, mayroon pong naghahanap sa inyo. Lilia raw po."

My forehead creased as the sleeping wrath had been awoken. What was she doing here? After what? Months and she thinks her explanation would do? She betrayed me. And I believe that once a person betrayed you, he or she can betray you again. I would never trust a treachery. And I won't every identify if her words were falsity or what.

But of course, even I was angry with her, I still want to talk to her. I want to hear her side before I made a judgement. I know her explanation won't do anything about the things had happened but I need to get closure, even the friendship had gone.

I went out of my room and immediately sauntered to the living room wherein I have seen my friend, sitting melancholy. The remorse was so palpable through her eyes, and with one eye contact, I had already decried the friend I think I had lost, the friend that I though was already gone because of her actions, the friend that I thought had chosen to hurt her friend that to respect her and
the friend that I was with in my entire life.

The water of wrath had been immolated with the firing memories of our childhoods and the likes. This was the feeling of missing someone and she was already in front of you. I want to hug her bur I have to squelch myself to do so. I need to restrain. I thought I could stand being mad at her, but looking at her sorry eyes, the building of hatred had been pulverized.

"What are you doing here?" I tried to feign angry and I think I succeeded.

"Cami," she said, standing up.

I clenched my jaw when I heard her voice. I want to slap her! I want to ask why did she do it? She betrayed me. She doesn't know that I don't love Drook but I tried to deceive them that I liked Drook even my heart was already beating with someone else. But one of my weaknesses was to see the tears of my beloved friend.

Lilia was been so good to me. I don't see her as a friend but a sister.

"I really love Drook though I did that." I could discern the forming tears at the side of her eyes.

I remained silent as I waited for her explanation. I want to heed to what she was going to tell me, I want to answer all the queries on my mind. But then, only her first sentence already completed the puzzle. She was in love with Drook, the love that sometimes manipulative, sometimes selfish and sometimes evil. Love has a good effects into the entire race of humans, it leads to the door of euphoria but all things have side effects, as what love is, it also could annihilate things or people around you.