Moments of gladness, moments of sadness & everything in-between.

Little changes

So far from okay.

Tongue tied and afraid.

The big things stay the same.

Let us make little changes.

For me, that meant dying my hair.

Carving anti-suicide statements into my skin.

Working out.

I'm strong yet so weak.

What else can I change?

In a few months, things will change as me and the British school system part ways. Like all the people I enjoy talking to do the same.

40mlg

Only 25 mg than what I was on before.

Little changes.

Move country.

Little changes.

Started saying yes.

Little changes.

Going on little dates.

Having a few drinks with friends.

Going out without letting myself being controlled by anxiety.

Allowing my self to enjoy myself without fear.

By making little changes.

I cannot fight changes.

I shouldn't have tried.

It's exhausting.

Seasons will come and go.

Just as my moods change.

So while I do morn the falling leaves I also hope the brightness of summer can reflect its self in my mindset.

-XR