Heart of Life (Teenage Punk Sequel)

Part Six

(The song for this part is Tee Shirt by birdy)

December 29th

"Hey babe, just wanted to call and say i love you and i miss you, i can't wait to see you. I will always love you, never forget that. Call me back, byeee love you" I smiled as I listened to Calum's message again, giggling to myself, i placed the phone down beside me, looking out the window, the moon shinning in. I looked down at Calum's old Nasa tee shirt I was wearing, along with pyjama shorts. It was currently 2:57am and I hadn't slept a wink. Calum was in New York with the boys for new years, they were preforming at a new years party and I had to stay at home, by myself. I had called Calum back but he was busy, so now i was just sitting, waiting for his call. 

I sighed as I stood up, making my way to the kitchen, phone in hand. Grabbing a cup, I made myself a hot chocolate, topping it off with tiny marshmallows. I smiled as I made my way to the couch and just as I sat down, the all too familiar ring tone rang through my ears, a smile growing on my face. “About time you called” I smirked, a light chuckle coming from the other side of the phone. “Hello to you too” I could hear the smirk on his face, “How was your day?” I smiled, sipping my hot chocolate. “Long. Had rehearsals all day. I’m very tired. But I’m happy I get to talk to you” Calum cheered, “Aww. You little cutie” I smiled, “How was your day?” He asked, I sighed as I took another sip of my drink. “Tiring. Had a meeting this morning, been writing all day. Nothing seems to be working though” I placed the cup on the coffee table in front of me, slowly standing up and walking to my room. “Aw babe. Everything will work out eventually, I promise. I’ll help you when I get back” a small smile grew on my face, “And I continue to ask myself how I got so lucky” He softly chuckled on the other side, “I ask myself the same question” he said, I giggled.

We continued to talk long into the morning, the conversation varying from topic to topic. At 5am we said our goodbyes, I smiled as my phone buzzed, the text replaying in my mind. My head hit the pillow and sleep filled my body, the thought of my boy just those few hours away, dreaming of the day I got to see him again. ‘Goodnight my sweet marshmallow, sleep tight and never forget I’ll always love you’

*Present*

“Mikey. I just, I don’t know what to do” I sighed, shaking my head. “I still have the last message he left me, I replay it over and over. His Nasa shirt, I still sleep in it” I looked up at Michael, sorrow filled his eyes, I looked down at my hands. “I know what I’m about to say won’t help, but I’d like to think he thinks of you every morning when he wakes up” I looked up at Michael, who had a half smile on his face. “I’d like to think that too” I half smiled, but soon shook it off, “But what about Jeff Mikey? I love him and I’m engaged to him” I sighed, “But he’s not him” Michael half whispered, “But I don’t know how you feel about Jeff, heck I don’t even know Jeff. But he does make you happy” I nodded slowly, but sighed, “But so does Calum” I half whispered, shaking my head once more.

 Michael and I continued to talk into the night, the sun soon shining through the curtains, indicating that morning had come. I sighed as I said goodbye, promising to return soon and making my way home. I walked in, smiling at the note from Jeff saying that he had gone to work and he hopped I enjoyed my walk. I made my way upstairs, changing into my pyjamas once more, looking down at the T-shirt I still wore, the memories of him flowing back, my mind jumbled of love and confusion, questions popping out of nowhere. I sighed as I picked up my phone, pressing play on the all too familiar message, the words playing over in my mind as I slowly drifted off to sleep. "Hey babe, just wanted to call and say i love you and i miss you, i can't wait to see you. I will always love you, never forget that. Call me back, byeee love you"