Long Goodbyes

Chapter 2

~Matts POV~

"What do you mean doesn't look good?" I ask, trying not to let my tears spill.

"Son give me time" The doctor says, injecting something into Jess's neck.

"Is she going to be okay?" I ask, looking at all the others boys and their broken hearts.

"She's-" He's stopped by that one noise I didn't want to hear.

I almost choke.

The steady beep.

The one where the line goes flat.

The one that sucks the life out of you whether your the one in the hospital bed or not.

The one I dreaded, coming here tonight.

"Help her!" Cam screams, covering his face with his hands.

I can't even speak.

This can't happen. This can't be real.

The doctor yells for help and the room fills with nurses.

They all crowd around Jess so I don't even know what's going on.

One nurse turns around though.

She looks me directly in the eyes, as if she's reading me, and lightly shakes her head.

N-no.. She- she can't.

Jess is dead.

My love. My life. She's dead.

"Jessi.." I choke, clutching the shirt she was wearing tonight, in my hands.

Nash breaks down, slamming his fist into the wall.

"Do something god dammit!" He yells, making the Doctors work quicker.

The rest of us just stay frozen.

Not able to live in the moment.

The moment where our favorite girl is dying.

Where she can't be helped.

It's not fair.

I just want to hear her laugh one last time.

Get a hug or two.

Have some of her famous Mac and cheese.

Watch the notebook over and over .

Just lay in bed, pausing the moment so I have more time left.

So she has more time left.

"We gotta pulse!" someone says, scrambling to get another needle.

Cam and I fly up at the same time, trying to get to the heart monitor.

Several little zig zags fill the screen.

Signaling life.

The life of Jessica Hope Hastings.

"thank you lord." I whisper into my hand, not believing what's going on.

Holy shit thank you god.

"I don't know how long we can hold her." A doctor says, injecting another liquid into Jess.

She must be in pain.

I don't want we suffering ?

That's not fair. None of this is.

She needs to- she needs to-

"Just let go Jess.." I whisper to myself, hoping maybe she could hear, "It's okay."

Somehow. Somewhere.

"What's happening?" Nash asks, rubbing his temples, tears continuing to fall.

"Her heart is trying boys. I think she knows her heart belongs to you." He says, pressing on Jess's chest.

This just causes me to cry more.

Shes fighting . Like always.

The beeping slows again and her chest moves up and down rapidly.

"Dude!" Taylor yells at the doctor, tugging at his hair.

I can't even speak at this point.

All the times she's fought through things. Died and revived.

You'd think this was just another little incident. That she'll wake up tomorrow with that beautiful smile.

But honestly...

I don't believe that for a second.

I hear the doctors mumble and one turns around.

"Sir, we would like you and your friends to leave for a few moments please. We have to enter her chest." She says, not making eye contact with me.

I cover my mouth nodding.

"I'm not leaving" Cam chokes.

"I can't." Nash says.

Taylor just shakes his head, tears falling.

"I'm sorry but you must." The doctor tells us.

I guess she's right. They have to do what they gotta do to help Jess.

I nod my head, trailing behind the other boys.

When I'm at the door I look back, taking one last look at her face.

Her eyelids twitch ever so slightly and I almost hope I'll get to see those big brown balls again.

But all I see is that straight line on the heart monitor .

Signally death.

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