Water And Land

strange girl

Now at this point in my life I have been wondering more and more how did this happen to me.  Why did I get into this so much but i guess it starts back from when i was younger.  I remember always being scared of nothing.  I wasn't afraid of the dark I wasn't scared of snakes or spiders or creepy crawlers. I never screamed when the boys would wear silly masks on Halloween to scare the girls in my grade school.  I was always fascinated by the monsters in monster movies.  Frankienstien, the invisable man, Dracula, swamp thing all of them were guilty pleasures of mine.  It wasn't until i was older that i got into reading about black magic voodoo and realising that these tribes that feared great gods weren't to far off from these movie monsters.  I always sympathized with them.  Being the out cast and the blame of tourment simply because of how they looked and how they were born.  I like to think of it in simpler terms.  If we as a society can accept interracial couples and or people or gay couples and or people why can't we accept the abnormal people? Why can't we just deal with that they live a different life than we do simply because the genes are a little different than ours?  I never saw the difference between normal and freak.  And now thinking on it I guess I really did get trouble for accepting the weird and abnormal into mylife so easily.  But now getting to know Abe more there's hardly a difference. Abe is just like anyother person. Accept he's better than any other person.  Hes more accepting and more understanding.  He s beautifully different.  There is no other Abe and he isnt proud of that hes aware and accepts that fact. He dosent brag about how different he is like most humans do when they have something slightly diffrent about them.  Hes kind and endearing; he never sells you short of what you would want to know.  Hes honest, and I cant help but think nothing of the highest of him.  Not to mention how other worldly beautiful he is.  He is an unforgettable face one that I will always see decades after seeing him but also so familiar and so soothing. Everytime I see him its like seeing a childhood friend.  I feel instantly better and very at ease.  Hes a gentle being always quick witted and very smart.  I dont understand how the outside world would hurt or tourture such a beautiful soul.  I also understand why Hellboy would be so on edge about meeting any one new.  I couldnt imagine growimg up hearing the ridicule and enduring the tourment of uneducated people must bring upon them simply for looking different.
I guess that would explain why I'm here.  Why I'm with the Buero. And I guess that would explain why I'm beginning to feel towards Abe.  Whether it be romantically or friendship I'm not sure.  But I know he will be very important to my life.