Bruised&broken (Jalex)

Its going to happen

Alex invited me over today so I'm going in half an hour. Let's hope he doesn't freak out and not want to be my friend anymore.

My parents gave me a look when I asked to go over. You know that look you're parents give you when they want you to do what's right. I hate that look. Although I don't really need it because I already know that I have to tell him or this feeling would eat me alive. Even if I didn't tell alex, he already knows me well enough to tell something is off about me and if I didn't want to tell he'd get mad so might as well have him hate me because I might like him.

I went downstairs to tell my parents goodbye when they stopped me,

"Guess what jack?" my dad asked. I hate the guessing game cause what the fuck am I supposed to think? 'You got me a rocket ship?' no just tell me already.

"What?"

"Wow such a party pooper mister," thanks mom. "But anyways you know that huge trip you aunt Mari was gonna go on the the Bahamas? yeah well you're cousins all came down with a bug-"

"Wait, how the hell is this good?" I intervened with.

"Let me finish, so the plane tickets are already payed for and so is the hotel rooms and they couldn't get a refund so she's giving it to us as an Easter present. Isn't that amazing?" wow. I totally forgot this weekend starts spring break but dude the Bahamas? Fuck yeah!

"That's amazing mom but it's a trip for four so who are you guys going to take?" that only just got to me the aunt Mari is married and has two kids not just one.

"Well, we were hoping that if all end well with you and Alex, he can go. We already talked with his parents and they said they were fine with it but wanted you to ask him."

"But what if Alex doesn't want to be friends with me after I tell him?"

"Then we'll just see if May can come. You're brothers are busy with work and May said she can wiggle her schedule if Alex doesn't want to go because she doesn't really want to go either."

"Alright I'll ask him. I'm going over right now actually so I'll text you what goes down. Bye" I hugged my mom and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek before grabbing my keys and exiting the house locking it on the way.

That's the beauty of having relatives though. I even got my car from aunt Mari's husband Bill. He didn't want it anymore and found it too worthy to sell. It's a 95 corvette and damn does it run good. He always fixes it up and whenever they come down here from New York he does some adjustments to make sure it still runs amazingly.

I got in my car and started it up. I don't get people who name or gender their cars. It's pointless.

I made the five minute drive down to Alex's house blasting blink-182's album 'Take off Your Pants and Jacket' I've always loved that album the most.

I parked my car in front of his house and stepped out. Seeing his parents weren't home, I knew that the door was unlocked. I always do this. I opened the door and shut it locking it knowing his parents would flip about it not being locked. Alex was too careless alone. How will he ever survive living alone. He'd probably forget to close the door and have stray cats living with him. I made the mistake of laughing out loud.

I saw Alex walk out of the kitchen in just sweatpants.

"What are you laughing at fuck stick?"

"Oh nothing, just how careless you are about locking the door or that when you actually live alone how you'd probably forget to close the door and you'd live with stray cats just coming in and out of your house."

"Dude, as much as that's probably true, fuck off." And then he walked back into the kitchen. I followed.

"Would you name the cats Alex? if you do, name one after me will ya?" he threw a piece of bread at me. Oh. I threw it back then ran out of the kitchen and headed toward the stairs. Thank God for my long legs because I was taking the stairs two at a time. I looked back at Alex and he was hauling ass. I sped up to his bedroom and threw myself on his bed. Seconds later he came in and threw himself on me.

"For a dude, your dot weight that much." It was true though, he was like a twig.

"Yeah, I know right? I'm skin and bones except for my ass. That's my money maker." He was grinning up and me and trying hard not to laugh. The way his eyes sparkled was amazing. Yup. Damn. I'm it it big. I know I'm crushing on my best friend.

"Alex can we talk?"

"About what? my addiction to stripping at bars?"

"No all serious." I could see him get worried because he looked at me and my eyes were starting to water.

"Oh no jay, what is it?" I felt comfort in the nickname but that only made my heart clench but in the good way.

"You know the kiss right?" I could see the color drain from his face. Maybe he was feeling what I'm feeling. Probably not though; he's probably scared because he doesn't want anyone to know about him kissing the same gender. I realized I kinda zoned out because Alex was snapping his fingers in front of my face,

"Hey, jack, buddy ya in there?"

"Oh yeah sorry, I zoned out but I don't know how to explain this so I'm just going to say it." I drew in a deep breath and "I might have a crush on you." I closed my eyes tightly and held my breath waiting for him to scream at me. Nothing. I felt the bed shift so I expected him to be out of the room now but I felt him straddle me. I took a breath and opened my eyes to see him looking down on me.

"First time you get to look down at me, huh shorty?" I could see him smile. Maybe he doesn't hate me. Then, what I was expecting since he straddled me happened. He kissed me. Properly this time; not like the fishy kiss we did in the car but proper lip locking kiss. I smiled and I could feel him smile too. This is what they talk about in movies. When you're best friend is your Mr. right.

"Can we talk it slow though?" he questioned.

"Well thank god you asked because I don't want to go too far and then one of us not actually feel it anymore." He let out a sigh.

"Oh yeah, my cousins are sick and can't go on a trip to the Bahamas, my aunt gave my family the tickets and everything's paid for so my mom wanted to know if you want to come because there's four tickets?"

"Yeah, let me ask my parents first-"

"My dad already asked them. they said you could but the want me to ask after I told you about my um, feelings." I shyly smiled then I felt his lips against mine and damn, was he a pretty good kisser.

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Hello:) so you guys are probably wondering what the title has anything to do with this or the first chapter because Alex likes him back but you'll figure out in later chapters. Enjoy reading but I'd like to tell you a story about my first kiss and I'd like to hear about your guy's, if it was perfect or awkward like mine so here we go. So the guy I liked was friends with my best friends boyfriend so we were all at the park and they knew we liked each other so they were kind forcing us together and then left us alone on some bleachers and he changed my contact name for him to babe and did the same to mine in his phone then he kissed me but I wasn't really expecting it so I didn't kiss back and I apologized for being awkward and I kinda sat there frozen for a bit and yeah. Haha. I hate everything but we ended up breaking up after a week. Go figure because no guys/girls want to date me. Btw if you're questioning the girls part it's because I'm pansexual so yeah I'm rambling so bye:)💚