July 5, 2014
Dear Zayn,
I cut for the first time today. I couldn't take the pain anymore, so I broke open a shaver, and cut open my wrist. The pain was remarkable. It took the pain of missing you away, but only for a minute. I needed to forget, so I cut again, and again. It takes the pain away...it makes me feel woozy and tired. So I sleep, where I enter painful but happy memories. Remember our first date? You took me to the beach to have a picnic. I mentioned when we first met that I've always wanted to do that but I never expected for you to remember. I still have the promise ring you gave me. I have yours and mine on a chain around my neck. I never take it off...are you watching over me right now?
Ni xx
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Dear Zayn
RomanceAfter the death of Zayn, Niall goes to a very dark place and struggles with suicidal thoughts and actions. Can he find happiness again? Read Niall's journal entrys and go through the treacherous journey of depression and get his view of loss and pa...
