My teenage life (Riker Lynch/ Life Fanfic)

Chapter 19: Should I leave? Or stay?

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 I sat down in the makeup chair... looking at myself in the mirror... I set my crutches beside me... Thinking... has this ever happened to anyone else? Or is it just me... I didn't mean that the Tour was a disaster... just the fans and the hate... I knew this was gonna happen... but not actually to me? People make mistakes right? Well.. I know this sounds weird... but I've made more than mistakes.. i'm way past mistakes.. i'm at the breaking point of mistakes. Mistakes is my middle name, i've destroyed this family okay? Do you understand me? Yet I can't even understand myself. I just looked in the mirror actually thinking the mirror understands me, but no it felt like I was talking to a wall... and the wall didn't care what I had to say. Its JUST A FUCKING WALL... I got up trying to walk but my ankle hurt so damn much.. I need to perform okay? That's all I have... Is to perform just let everything out. 

 I walk out and go into the break room.. I look like shit but I don't care.... I walk into that room with no care at all.. everyone looked at me like I was fucking high and going on a rampage... I-I wanted to thank you all for believing in me when I didn't believe in myself...  You know I started to say.. I don't live in a magical world where everything works out as you can see.. the people who were supposed to love me more than anyone else... left... they all left... and didn't care how I felt or how my mom felt. And you guys don't know what it's like.. to not be wanted.. I said in tears... You guys have it all.... and the ones who have been struggling.. are me and Izzy... we have no one... Okay No one. People leave because it's easier to walk away than to fight for what they really want... Our families... chose to leave... and not fight.. because they are selfish. And - And you guys don't deserve this... okay i'm sorry for everything... and I was thinking about leaving or staying... but you guys proved.. I should stay.. especially Stormie... I love you to death.. all of you.. I looked at Riker... especially you. I thought I was gonna lose everything.. especially myself... Riker got up and came over.. to kiss me and say... I will always care.. will never leave your side i'll be here every step of the way... even if you don't need me.. i'll be here... I asked you to be my girl friend because I love you... and will do anything for you. He hugs me... Thank you Riker... I say while whippers my tears away.. 

Sorry everyone.. I look like a fucking Zombie... Lol Rocky stands up and says.. he I love Zombies.. it's okay... Lol everyone got in a group and hugged me... I'm gonna go sleep somewhere.. I said while walking out... Good Night everyone. You can stay in here.. sleep on my lap I heard Riker say... Alright.. sounds better than the floor I laughed and walked over there... I felt safe with him and that's all that matters.