My teenage life (Riker Lynch/ Life Fanfic)

Chapter 29: Waking up.

I woke up.... unsure of what happened last night.. of course.. I look at my clock... it reads 10:30 am.. Great... another day of my boring life... 

 I step outside sitting on my stairs infront of my house.. the sun hitting me... SHITTT I say as I get up and start walking.. i was thinking about the dream I had last night.... OMG so much in just a dream.... I cut in it.. I was friends with the Lynch's.. I look up.. to the House... that the Lynch's stayed at... A For Sale sign outside... waving back and forth from the wind... So everything I just thought about.. was a dream... My mom was okay... everyone was okay... No Lynch's... Plus Ellington.. my heart sank... and I heard a crack..... 

 I look up.. Just thinking to myself... I was happy sometimes in that dream.. my idols were my best friends... but.. none of that was real. I raised both of my hands up to the sky and raised my middle finger. 

FUCK EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING 

I yell into the sky.. letting some stuff out.. my tears going down my cheeks working its way to my neck... this feeling sucks... I don't have anyone.... 

 I walk away... crying and thinking to myself.. no one has loved me.. they will never love me. Not even my frigging first love.. Riker.. Anthony Lynch. I let that just go through my mind.. making me cry even harder... The feeling of not being wanted.. by anyone.. sucks... I hear my mom call me for breakfast... Great i'm crying.. and I don't want to explain this dream to her.. it's to much.. I can't my emotions are everywhere. 

i whipped away my tears and walked inside.... Mom.. I say as I walked into the kitchen... do U think the Lynch's love me? 

She laughs and gets our plates out.. they don't even know you exist sweetie.. and you'll never be with a Lynch.. just face the facts.. she sat down.. leaving me there... looking at the ground... everything she said.. felt like a stab in the heart. 

I sat down not saying a word... I look up at my mom and start to speak. 

What if they do love me... what if they actually care about me.. I live in this world where no one cares... and I try to fucking accept the fact... that they actually fucking care and love me... Now I'm gonna fucking go. 

She looks at me.. and gets up.. 

I get up also.. causing her to shift away.. she thought I was gonna do something.. I walked upstairs grabbed my shit and walked out the door. The fact she didn't say she loved or even cared about me hurt me the most. 

 I walk up the street.. passing Scarlett's house... Or does she even live there.. i think to myself... All of this is confusing me... I kept walking.. passing white van.... coming down the street... and going by my house.. everyone got out.. and I couldn't belive who it was... 

My family. 

Fuck my life... I thought they weren't coming back... 

Yeah.. this part is true in my life... they actually did leave.. I say to myself... but they try crawling back.. and turn away and walk faster up the road.. coming to a stop. YEAS.. STARBUCKS IS MY LIFE RN. 

I walked in and grabbed a coffee... i do this often.. and I lie about my name.. I always say to Put Rydel on it.. Haha.. I think everyone does this to a point. I grabbed my coffee and sat down... this shit is da bomb.... I sat here... collecting all my thoughts.. and it's all a fucking lie.. and a dream.