My teenage life (Riker Lynch/ Life Fanfic)

Chapter 28: I think part of me will always miss you.

Riker's POV: 

  It's been 3 months since I seen Kennedy.. I miss her sooooo much... but like the thing is..... she doesn't think I love her.. and she can't trust me.. I get why... but like I want her.. her mind.. her thoughts.. her everything.. but if she can't trust me.. then what am I supposed to do. I look back at all our good times.. honestly.. I should of never cheated.. seeing her face when she seen me kissing the other girl... was just so not right.. I can't believe I did that... And the fact she barely can lay her eyes on me... I love her eyes.. light brown.. and I just get lost in them. We're gonna be home in like 2 hours... Dude.. I can't wait to just... hug her.. or even kiss. I haven't kissed her in forever.. I love the tingly feeling when I kiss her... But now that's over.. until she can trust me again. 

I grabbed my phone and called her... but she didn't answer it went right straight to voicemail. 

Kennedy's POV: 

My phone rang.. it was Riker... I just found out horrible news... I'm crying so much... I f-found out.. my mom just died... I say to Scar... She - She died in her sleep... I went up in my room... Zoning out.. and Just listened to music.. while balling my eyes out.. I just got the news like 2 hours ago.. and then Scar came up and knocked... I barely heard it.. and then.. I seen them walk in. I threw my headphones.. and went straight to Riker.. I hugged him like crazy... I missed everyone so much.. they all came and gave me a group hug.. I was crying.. I could barely talk. Rik.. I say quietly... M-my mom.... just di-died and then started balling again... Riker starts to speak OMG I'm sooo sorry.. we will take care of you.. Okay? 

Okay. I say as I start to settle down.. I can't believe my mom just passed... But i'm just glad I have the people I love.. and can count on in my life. They're all I have now. All I have... I say closing my eyes slowly... and fell to the floor. I didn't care.. I made myself pass out.. They can worry all they want.. but this is what I want.. I wanna be in the hospital.. and Yell at those doctors.. because they made my mom die. I woke up... but didn't hear anyone around me.. I just sat there... looking at the ceiling... Nasty ass ceiling... Many people have died in here.. Lost souls... People's hearts breaking because the people they loved.. have died in this very bed..this same room... and this same hospital.... 

 I couldn't believe my mom was gone... Forever.. she hasn't even seen me get married.. she won't see me have children.. she won't see me have a happy life. I sort of just feel like dying today. I have no one in my life anymore.. everyone has left.. and i'm sitting here.. in the fucking hospital.. because I made myself pass out. I realize now.. that dying is easy... but living is hard.... I want to die.. but I don't want to die from suicide.. I snap out of it... and everyone is asleep around me.. so now is my chance. 

 I lean up.. I point at Riker sound asleep... 

I love you Riker.. I say.. as he wakes up

I love you Scarlett... 

I love you Rydel... she opens her eyes and coverse her mouth with her hand. 

I love you Rocky... I say as he looks at me. like i'm weird. 

I love you Ross... he doesn't wake up.. Lol

I love you Ratliff... I say.. as he says.. what can I say.. Muahha 

I love you Stormie.. I love you too.. I hear her say in tears. 

I love you Mark... Thank you for being the dad I've never had.. I say as he starts to come over and hug me. 

And I love you Ryland..

 I love you guys so much... and thank you for being here.. when I had no one... Honestly... I feel empty.. I want to cuss out these doctors.. but it wasn't there fault.. she left on her own.. I feel like I have no one.. yah I feel like that.. but I know.. I have all you.. I try to except the fact.. that I know i'm doing okay.. but inside i'm not. I look at me.. and I don't like what I see... but I have to deal with it... because I need to be here for everyone else... 

I die a little bit inside.. when I don't get to spend time with you... Riker... these past 3 months.. have been the worst.. out of this whole fucked up year. Because.. I know.. You love me... but I couldn't except it... Yes.. I do love you.. and I would do anything for you.. and for yuor family... because they have loved me every step of the way.. when I put them down... I look down at my feet.... with tears and my eyes.. and then look back at him.. and I don't want to lose you again. 

 He sits up in his chair.. and opens his mouth.. You know Kennedy... I love you too... I hurt everyday because I didn;t know if you loved me back... it hurt me that I did that.. and If I could go back and change everything I would.. because spending all these days with you.. made me realise.. your my everything.. and I never want to lose you... because I love you to death.. and I miss everything that we did... I miss our hugs.. I miss our everything.. and if you won't be the love of my life... or my girl friend.. then I don't know what I will do.. he says looking at me.. 

 Of course.. I will be your girl friend.. I need you.. I need everyone.. and I need to get out of this damn hospital I say smiling. They all came up and hugged me.. and Riker... hugged me the longest... and then... Kissed me.. OMG I missed this so much... his lips are so soft.. they are like heaven.. I missed kissing him.. I missed that feeling when we always did.. and I especially missed him saying he loved me. 

Riker's POV: I missed our kisses I say in her ear.. I missed them too.. she says letting go.. but me still in her ear.. I start to speak quietly. 

 When I first saw you... I fell in love.. and you smiled.. because you knew.. I say in her ear.. Yeah I knew... I knew that ya'll would be in my life.. Forever.. and I knew... I would never leave your side.. she says.. Wow that made me feel amazing... She makes my life complete. 

 And I want her.. as much as she wants me.