My teenage life (Riker Lynch/ Life Fanfic)

Chapter 30: It's the end.

A/N: OMGGGG THESE CHAPTER ARE YUGSIBSG Hope you love it!!!! Unfortunately... this I think will be the last chapter.. i'm not sure yet... but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT AND VOTE!!!! Love you guys ~ Kennedy 

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  I ran down the street getting away from this lie running away from my dreams. I'm done with people putting me down. All I am.. is a fucking 20 year old.. running away from the truth..... trying to still figure out how to fucking live in this cruel world. Everyone says I have changed... I don't even know how... and some people say... I have issues... which I don't think is true. I'm just a adult trying to be happy. When am I ever going to be happy? I'm not happy around my family... I'm happy around R5.. I was happy in my dream... I seen R5 like 6 years ago.. that was the happiest i've ever been.. because Ratliff, Ryland and Riker noticed me.. i felt amazing just locking eyes with them... but I had to leave... and live my life... and just living.. sucks. 

 I stop and just sit in the middle of the street.. waiting for a car to come.. and just like hit me.. just leave me in the street.. until someone notices. Which no one will. I'm not afraid of dying.. Pieces of me die all the time. 

 I get up and realise... i should live.. and actually see if this was a dream.. or it was real... yeah I know the Lynch's house is for sale... and no one is there.. but what if they come... and everything that happened in my dream.. is gonna come true. 

 Great... I see a black van... it looks like the van I seen in R5's video in Japan... Omg Is it them... I just go back and walk to my house.. just looking and trying to see through the window... but of course they are tinted.. I walk inside and just sit on the couch.. looking out the window OMG.... holy shit holy shit holy shit I remember this in my dream.. i remember looking out the window and seeing this tall sexy blond omg byeusbyudbbacu I'm dying.... well... there is a tall sexy guy outside.. and then there are more blondes and brunettes I can't even. 

 I ran outside jumping onto Riker just hugging him... he looked confused and... awkward.. I got up and said. " I missed you so much Rik" he looks at me weird and says " Um... do I know you?" I look at him.. just hurting and tears in my eyes... "I guess not".. I say as I walk off.. and into the house.. I feel like a total bitch.. I feel empty inside. 

 I'm just gonna smile like nothing's wrong, Pretend like everything's all right, act like it's all perfect, even though inside it really hurts. 

My heart is broken into pieces that you can't put back together... Having a broken heart is like having broken ribs... On the outside you look fine... but every breath... hurts. I'm technically single.. but my heart is taken by someone I can't call my own. He pulled the trigger.. to my gun... and just broke my heart.. into a million pieces.. that I can never find again.. 

I look outside... and at him.. just standing up... starring at the ground.. wondering what just happened... 

I turn back around with tears in my eyes... just thinking... why doesn't he remember.. just fucking remember me.. Please. I need him.. more than he needs me. 

 I feel like all the bad shit that happened in my dream.. is gonna happen again.. I decided to get up and walk outside.. and just walk up the street... 

 Riker seen me... and just sat there in the spot.. where I hugged him.. clueless about what happened... 

 He ran up to me... "Hey I just wanted to know.. why you came up and hugged me.. and then said you missed me? I'm so confused" I stop.. and just look at him.. "You wouldn't understand, I say as I start walking again... it was all a lie.. just think of that" I say as I walk away.. from everyone.. and him just sitting there. 

 Riker's POV: 

It was all a lie? What is she talking about... "Can I atleast know your name?" I say as I look at her.. she stops and turns around.. You can call me Kennedy... she says... and starts walking again.. why is she walking away? What is the lie about... why did she say she missed me? 

 Rydel runs over here and says.. that's Kennedy right? Haha... 

I look at her with a weird face.. how do u know her??? Um.. I was in her dream... it was messed up... she looks at me with a big smile... 

Then how don't I remember? I say to her... 

Because you never loved her as much as we did.. she says as she walks away... 

WHAT IS HAPPENING. 

I run up the street going by Kennedy and getting in front of her... So... dell just told me.. you had a dream about us? Delly remembers everything.. and I don't I say as I look at her... 

"it's because they loved me more than u did" she says as she walks away.. that's what delly just said. 

 She starts to talk "YOU HURT ME... YOU CHEATED ON ME... AND YOU LEFT ME.. FOR A WHORE.. THAT WANTED TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU.. SHE USED YOU.. AND I DIDN'T... YOU SAID SHE MADE YOU FEEL LOVED.. EVEN THOUGH I WAS THE ONE THERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU WERE DOWN.. AND THERE FOR YOUR FAMILY.. YOUR FAMILY WAS HERE FOR ME.. WHEN MY MOM DIED.. YEAH YOU WERE TOO... BUT THEN.. AFTER ME AND YOU GOT HIT BY THAT DRUNK.. EVERYTHING CHANGED.. YOU CHEATED.. AND DIDNT CARE... YOU HURT ME.. AND DIDNT CARE. I CUT MYSELF ON THE WRIST.. BECAUSE OF EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW RIKER.. AND TO EVEN THINK.. I LOVED YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVED ME... SUCKS.. YEAH I WANTED YOU BACK.. AND I GOT YOU BACK.. BUT IT FELT LIKE YOU DIDNT CARE"  

Kennedy's POV: 

I say that to Riker... FUCK..... he deserves to know how I feel... and I just told him... Delly runs up and hugs me.. I hug her as tight as possible.. these hugs are better in real life huh.. I say with tears running down my cheeks I missed you.. she says whispering in my ear.. and he will remember soon.. he'll come crawling back... she says letting go.. Thanks... well I'm gonna go... I don't think you guys want to see me cry.. I say walking away. 

It's too late now.. I hear Rocky say as soon as i tunr around... yeah I know..... 

I just walked away... looking back at all of them... Riker looking so fucking confused... and me.. crying my eye balls out. 

See this is what I always do.. the one I love.. broke my heart.. and doesn't even know.. how he did.. he doesn't remember me.. and it sucks just walking away from him.. but it's all I have... that's all I do.. is walk away.. and just leave the one who hurt me.. sitting there. Clueless....