calum fucking hood;
don't think that i don't miss you every fucking day. when i see garrett, i think of you. and god damn it, calum, it hurts.
it hurts to see you destroying yourself day by day. it hurts to watch ashton break down with each letter he delivers, begging on his knees with tears in his eyes for me to pick up the pen and write back to know that i'm still here.
do not go to that bridge. i'll never forgive myself if you kill yourself. don't, please.
i'm such a piece of shit. you probably already know that, though. i've destroyed the only person that has always stuck by my side. hell, we haven't even known each other for very long and i've already grown attached to you. it's scary, distancing yourself from the one who loves you the most. and even though we weren't ever anything, i sure as hell with we could have been. i should have said something instead of running away like a coward.
i though garrett would fill the void i pushed you out of, calum. and sure, for a while, he did. but he is no you. his smile doesn't make me want to jump off of a cliff (in a good way, honey). he does not have that effect on me, not like you do. because in truth, i'd rather have one calum than one thousand garretts.
do not ever go so long without eating. please baby, just don't. eat some cake or even a little piece of toast.
why, you might be wondering, would your tormenter actually advise you to care for yourself?
because i fucking love you, calum hood. and it hurts waking up each morning and reminding myself that i don't love you even though the back of my mind screams for me to admit it to myself. i love i love you i love you and the moment i see you i will tell you. i swear on my life, calum.
xoxo
marilyn
p.s. i'm not mad at anyone but myself, i promise. please quit apologizing.
p.p.s. i liked it when you called me marilyn.
PLOT TWIST MOTHERFUCKERS
but guys its almost over omg only one more note and 2 actual chapters ((kind of???))
ps the gif is like perfectly relating to the note is it not?
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marilyn / c.h.
Fanfictionin which two strangers write letters to piece together the events of a wild night
