Forever Fades Away

Chapter 31: My Hope

Third Person's POV

"Nathan?" The soft voice rang through everyone's ears.

Our heads jolted to Hoseok's coffin in complete and utter disbelief and shock. Could it be? Hoseok? Or is this just one of that devil's tricks again, Phoebe. Nathan ran to the coffin as we trailed behind him. There was Hoseok, lying in his same position. Nathan leaned closer towards his lifeless, now dead boyfriend. His heart pumping fast, he felt his cold blood rushing through his veins. It all felt like a bullet was ripping straight through his soul.

He admired every feature of Hobi. His once bright and happy ray of sunshine. The boy's brown locks draped over his face, merely touching his closed eyelids. Nathan felt his pale, soft skin as he cupped the boy's face and caressed it with his thumb. He was on the verge of crumbling into bits like a cookie. Tears were already flowing down his cheeks. With a shaking voice he whispered, "Don't leave me." His breath hitched. "I believe start reaching now.."

Everyone fell in silence. The place was dead quiet. So quiet that you could hear everyone's heart beating out of their chest. Nathan's mind was flooding with a wave of emotions. Inside his rough sea was a  whirlpool of sadness and a tiny splash of hope. He didn't know what to think. But he knew one thing for sure.

He's not going to lose his hope THIS easily.

His lips were quivering, yet he still deciding to continue the lyrics to the song that he was helping Hobi write before he died.

"N-No ending, you're the one last hope of my heart."

He was extremely hesitant to keep going, but with all his faith and hope in his heart, he did.

"No matter how much the storm and the rain fall."

And again.

"No matter how dark this darkness that calls."

Every member was so shocked that they wrote this song together. It hasn't been released yet and this makes it the first time the rest of the band heard the song. Every word had such meaning and passion poured into it.

"I'll find a way to reach out for your hand."

He took his boyfriend's hand as his heart ached at the touch.

He closed his eyes.

He couldn't do this anymore.

Each word he said hurt him so much even though he adores their song.

He just wanted to fall into Hoseok's warm embrace like he used to.

Instead of holding onto his cold, lifeless hands.

But he couldn't.

Because now, Hoseok is gone.

Forever.

His head fell onto Hoseok's chest. He started sobbing. Letting it all out. But then..

"You will never be alone."

A vibration came over Nathan. He felt a warm hand resting on his head. A familiar heartbeat began to ring in his ear where he laid against Hoseok. Then he felt fingers beginning to comb through his hair. With sad, red, burning eyes, Nathan looked up.