Runaway

Chapter 14

Kate's POV

After I popped my head back in my bunk and let my thoughts run wild, I heard the other coming in and getting in there bunks. I just laid there and stared at the ceiling wishing I could fall asleep. At least tomorrow we will be in a hotel at night so it will be comfier. I could really use a cigarette right about now. Hmm. I snuck out of my bunk and into the back room shutting the door. I went into my bags and found my pack. I pulled one out, placed it between my lips and lit it. I then opened the window for air flow and took an extremely long drag, it was so long I thought the cigarette would burn out by the time I did it. I felt the familiar burning sensation in my throat I always get from inhaling the smoke. I blew the smoke out in a straight line, out the window. It felt so relieving to have one. All of the sudden I heard the door begin to creak open so I did the only smart thing and out the lit cigarette in my mouth like a moron.

"Kate, what are you doing up?" Lauren asked peeking her head from behind the door

"Hshshhsvsjemnsu" Nothing I said was understandable because I had it in my mouth, don't worry my tongue put it out which hurt like a bitch and not to mention the taste.

"What's in your mouth?" Lauren asked approaching me

I just shook my head no and she sat next to me.

"Why do you have the window open? The AC is on, it's kind of cold." She said

I then realized I have no idea what to do right now, I can't speak and I can't eat the cigarette, or can I.

"Kate just open your mouth." Lauren said

I shook my head and then attempted to swallow the cigarette which caused my to begin choking. Lauren then realized I was choking and had to do the remover thingy and I coughed up the cigarette on the floor if the bus. When she released me she went to look at the floor and I jumped onto it blocking her view.

"Oh my god, what are you doing? Just let me see what it is, your trying to hide." Lauren said yanking me up by my arm

"Oh my god, you tried to swallow a cigarette! Are you crazy?! You could have-" I cut her by placing my hands on her mouth and shushing her. She ripped my hands off my face

"Don't shush me. Those things will kill you Kate. Why would you do something so stupid? And to attempt to swallow it, you could have gotten really sick or something. Do you want to die early?" Lauren lectured but the last question caught my attention and I just looked at her

"Give me your pack now!" She commanded

"No, your not my mother. I don't have to give you anything Lauren. Please you don't understand how hard it is to be without them." I said to her grabbing my pack out of my bag and holding them for dear life.

"I may not be your mother, but you are not gonna smoke while your with me." Lauren said through gritted teeth

"Fine then I won't smoke with you." I said walking off to my bunk, knowing she can't yell at me there.

As I was walking out I felt a sharp pain in my arm, which was Lauren yanking me back roughly. She squeezed my arm with a death grip. I looked at her with tears welling up in my eyes.

"Lauren, your hurting me." I whined hearing my voice crack

"Oh, I'm so- I didn't mean to." She stuttered out

I just looked at her and held my arm and ran to my bunk hopping in it and thinking. What if Lauren tells? What if she meant to hurt me? What if she hard me now? I don't know if it was the overall stress of the day or what but I fell asleep in the middle of thinking.