My Miracle

Back at it Again

Ally's pov

I had the best time with the boys in Europe but it is finally time to go back to LA. The second Paris show and the last show was crazy. All the fans were amazing and the boys kept getting emotional. Today we were getting on our plane and we are waking up at 2:30 to catch our 5:00 flight. But we will be back in LA at 3:00 pm. I can't wait to see Bella and Courtney, and Riley  and Im so excited because the week after we get back is Bryce and Kevin's wedding. I have missed a lot at work so I can't wait to come back. I will be spending a few short months before I start working for Vogue! I'm so excited, this has actually been my main goal for a while and this is what my agency focuses on. What they do is they give new models experience and exposure so they can start their career with a brand or company or something of the sort. I can't wait. I am really happy because their biggest main studios are in New York, but sense Im a newbie and they have opened studios in LA I can stay and maintain my life style with Zach and the crew. I love everyone so much I am just on cloud 9. But of course I always think that my life is like that books series  "the series of unfortunate events" because whenever something good happens something equally bad happens. So I'm knocking on wood and keeping my fingers crossed. I am so excited for the next chapter in my life. But my life is so cliche and something straight out of a book. There is never a dull moment. Theres bound to be drama when I get back to LA so I'm taking this time to fully acknowledge and appreciate everything that I have in this moment. Ryan sent me a text saying that he will never drive underage again. I think it was a joke but we had gone over this many of times. I'm seven years older that Ryan which means that since I just turned 18 he is 11. That is way too young to be driving. Ryan and I have gone through some crap together and he has obviously gone through some crap but it wasn't his fault. His mom (my aunt) was going through some tough times. She was running out of money and was floating between jobs.  Because my dad was an extremely successful business man my aunt asked for some money. My dad being a brother and a jerk said no. So Ryan had been tutoring some kids at school for money to help his mom. One day his mom was watching the neighbor kids for an extra buck so he took her car to the kids house to tutor. Unfortunately he got in a crash which ended up causing him treatment cost and a ticket for driving underage. Luckily my dad bailed him out of jail and I paid for everything else. I didn't know that part of the story until Ryan told me when he got his memories back. I haven't talked to my dad since. I don't want to hate him but now that I think about it he only really cared about himself and his immediate family. I mean but he used people and as soon as he stoped feeling for my mom he moved on. Now he loves my sisters and I because we listen and we're one of his own. we weren't born from him but we are the only thing he can call child. Jeez I don't know how I do it. Not to sound petty or anything but I mean dang I've been through some crap. and I know its totally cheesy but Zach is responsible for it. He's responsible for my strength and perseverance, my happiness and my smile, and most importantly my passion. Im passionate about everything I do and he's what keeps me going. I am in love with him and I have full intention of spending the rest of my life with him. Now I wrote that all down. I want to document this feeling so I can come back to it on a rainy day.  

We land in LA and crap has already started. They lost our bags, they're still France. They will be flown out tonight and they will be delivered to us tomorrow but this is ridiculous. I take my back pack thankfully I packed some clothes and I have stuff at the apartment but that has my makeup and stuff in it that I will need for work so I'm going to take tomorrow off. Oh well ;) Zach and I head back to my apartment to pick up my stuff and the girls. We are all having a bon fire at the boys house. I'm probably going to crash there so I packed a small bag for the morning. we get to my apartment and its not burned to the ground which is a good sign. I walk in and I spoke too soon. There's smoke in the kitchen and a fire extinguisher going off. As soon as the cloud of everything went down I could see Bella and Courtney with guilty looks on their faces. 

Ally: what happened in here??

Bella: we tried to make cookies as a welcome home present.

Courtney: We obviously don't know how to use a kitchen.

Ally: oh Jee Whiz.

Zach: guys we should do something to clean this up.

Bella: We will clean it up later, Ally you're not sleeping here tonight anyway.

Zach: your not??

Ally: oh well I was planning on probably crashing at your place if that ok?

Zach: yeah no thats great I just didn't know if you needed your space.

Ally: oh I'm sorry do you need space because I can sleep here tonight.

Zach: No yeah I just thought you might be sick of me.

Ally: I could never get sick of you.

he pulls me into a quick kiss. I didn't know Zach would even make that a conversation. Maybe he did want some space. But I mean we just got back together after being away for 4 months. But whatever. I kept getting these notifications like I'm being tagged in something. I haven't had time to sit down and check it so I shut it down and grab a charger. We head over to the boys house and it was kinda awkward. Zach barely said a few words to me, what was he hiding. I am so confused. but tonight is a night to celebrate with all of my friends not just Zach. I'm going to hang out with the guys and I'm going to have fun with my girls. I think I might end up going home afterwards because thats clearly what Zach wants but he's too polite to say it. I just don't get it, three days ago he didn't want me out of his reach and now he doesn't want me anywhere near him. The only time that happened is when he thought his hair looked funny or if he had to figure some stuff out. But what could he have to figure out he just got back from tour.  We sit around the fire and sing songs, play games, drink (juice) and have fun. We enjoy each others company. All of the girls ended up spending the night at the guys place. Ethan and Jadyn need up crashing in Jonah and Daniels room, Daniel went back to Eden's place with her, Zach and Jack slept in their own room with Jonah and Corbyn, and Riley, Bella, Courtney, and I slept in the living room. I woke up the next morning and I decided to make pancakes for everyone. Jonah being a huge morning person got up and immediately made a cup of coffee. I swear that boy would die if caffeine was never discovered. 

Ally: morning big bro

Jonah: Heyyyy....

Ally:what...!!!??

Jonah: Well I have to be honest with you about why Zach has been so weird lately 

Ally: please, actually I was going to ask you if you knew.

Jonah: it's not my place to tell you this and its something that you have to ask him about but I think you deserve the truth. 

Ally: ok spit it out.

Jonah: well see he kinda----

and this was the beginning of something that I never thought was possible but I totally should have seen coming. Here we go, back at it again.