Never Let You Go (sequel to Where do we go from here)

New York

Over the next few weeks Joey did everything in his power to try to convince me to stay flowers, jewelry even a car. He tell me he was going to clean up that morning and by that night I get a phone call that he is spiraling out at a bar. Soon the day came the guys all loaded the uhaul the night before and now it was time to head out, everyone came out to see us leave and honestly there wasn't a dry eye. Everyone said their goodbyes and headed in and there I stood face to face with Joe tears in his eyes "stay safe Lee""thank you, please take care of yourself""your really leaving me, we are really over""Joey we've been over this, we been over""but I love you""this has nothing to do with if I love you or not Joey because god knows I do, I just can't do it anymore""but..." I lean in and kiss him softly, "goodbye Joey!" I got into the car and Jon got into The uhaul and I pulled out a tear sliding down my cheek as I watch him out of the review mirror as he gets farther and farther away.

We drove through the night and made it into New York early that next morning. We pulled up to a small 3 bedroom house that I had bought, it's nothing in compared to my house with Joey but it's mine and I bought it myself. Right away Jon and I went to unpacking the truck and setting up the house Jordan would be there the next day with the twins. We worked through the day and had it for the most part put together. We called it a day about 7 and called and ordered a pizza and flopped on the couch to watch a movie "so lil bit""yes""you sure about this""Jon we been over this""I know but you are so far from any of us""yes I know""I know you did this so you don't have to deal with Joe""Jon""no listen to me, I've been here through everything remember that,Leesa your running, your running because you know it's only a matter of time before you and he find your way back together so it's just easier for you to run than face it head on. Don't get me wrong I know why you are doing it but...""Listen that's not the case I had a great job offer and I couldn't say no""and your telling me the 10 other offers you got in Boston none of them were as good?""No they weren't""Lee I love you you know that but I don't believe you, your hurt and running""I'm not fucking running god!""whatever you say." We sat quitely watching the rest of the movie, he was right you know even though I would never admit to anyone I am running because I just can't stand to see Joe or be near him and to not be with him it's breaking my heart but I'm also not going to sit and have the kids and I watch him kill himself. This move is what I need to move on not for me but it's what is best for Victoria and JJ. I know there is always going to be a part of me who is in love with him, he has been my everything for so long, I still love him I guess I always will.

Jordan pulled up with the twins that afternoon as just as always hurricane Knight blew in, he walked in looked through the house quick before grabbing a slice of pizza and flopping on the couch, the kids immediately grabbed Uncle Jon and ran into the backyard. " So this is it Lee""Yup this is it, its nothing in compared to my house with Joey but it's mine and I bought it on my own""not what I mean your really going through with this""what you mean""the move you and Joe everything""J I've been over this how many times""I know but I'm gonna say it because no one else will""what""Leesa he is devistated, I've never seen him this way""J he made this decision when he lied and the drinking and the weed""I understand why you did it I just want you to know that he is trying""Jordan he really has you snowed too he can say it all he wants he is trying but when I get calls every night that he is in a bar getting fucked up it's obviously just more empty promises.""Lee he was with me last night and I can tell you he wasn't drinking""one night""you know what he was doing""I don't know at a strip club""funny no he sat in y'alls bedroom watching old videos of you two and had me throw out all his shit, the bottles the weed the blunt wrappers everything"ok and""Leesa he is trying""Jordan I love him you know I do but it doesn't matter anymore""I think your going to regret this""J please""ok..ok anyways I'm gonna go out back with the kids""ok" and with that he walked out back.

I walked back into my bedroom and started to put it together we got everything moved and squared away last night but I didn't get to my room since I wanted to make sure the kids rooms were done for today first. I was at it for about half an hour when my phone dinged, it was a text from...Joey
Joey: hope you got there safe❤️
Just that one text put another crack in my already fragile heart and a single tear slide down my cheek and I text back
Me: Yes I made it safely yesterday thank you and the kids made it here about a hour ago
Joe: I miss you
Me: Joey
Joe: Don't worry I don't expect you to say it back
Me: I'm sorry I really don't know what you want me to say, I can't say what you want to hear
Joe: I know you can't and I deserve it, I just want you to know I still love you I always will and I will forever hate myself for what I put you through...I'm sorry
Me: I know you are and I'm not mad at you anymore
Joe: your not
Me: No I'm not Joe all I want is the best for you, and yes I still love and miss you more than anything it's just...
Joe: just what? Come home we will work it out I love you please Lee...Sweetbaby... please
Me: No Joe I can't.. I gotta go just remember whatever happens I do love you
Joe: baby
Me: goodbye Joe