Never Let You Go (sequel to Where do we go from here)

Please don't go

Here we are November 1st the day Ive been dreading, I sat on the bed as I watched Joey finish packing and a tear slides down my cheek. Joe looks up and reaches over wiping it away "Sweetbaby please don't cry""don't cry, Joe your leaving me Im six months pregnant and your going to probably be on the road when I deliver." He tossed his bag to the side and sat down pulling me into his arms, kissing me gently, "Sweetbaby that will not happen, I will be there please dont worry.""Joey""I will be there trust me." He places another kiss and finishes up his packing. The twins are asleep unfortunely when they wake up Joe will already be on a plane to the first tour stop in Denver. I sat on the bed watching him tears streaming down my face, how am I suppose to do this without him.

The car pulled up a short time later and the boys piled in to say goodbye. "lil bit" I sat crying into Jon's shoulder knowing next to Joe he is the one that I find the most comfort with " Lil bit, it will be ok""Jon he is leaving and I need him, I cant do this on my one""Yes you can and your never alone we are all a phone call away, and Harley is here""I know its just...""Lil bit we have to do this he has to do this, you know he doesnt want to leave you and this kids""I know""your going to be alright,Harley will be here later to help you get over to Kay's and he is right up the street for anything, and I mean anything he said just call and he will come running.""Thank you Jon.""You got it, I love you and Vick and JJ please make sure you tell them that.""I will." With one more hug and Kiss Jon heads out the door. Danny was next, apparently Im going to be going through all the guys, "Baby Girl""Danny""Your gonna be alright you know that, your selling yourself short""Danny I need him""he needs you but it has to be done, and I know that you will be ok""I love you Danny""You know I love ya, Im goin to facetime the kids later.""Ok""Bye babygirl." Danny headed to the car, Donnie walks up doesnt say a work just puts his and on my belly and pulled me into a hug, I feel his hot breath on my neck as he whispered "Love ya shorty remember that". Jordan walks up dropping to his knees and puts his head on my belly and said "Hey buddy be good for mommy well daddy and us are gone ok, dont come to early" just as he said that I felt Jayden kick which kicked Jordan right in the head. With a Hug, Jordan and Donnie head out leaving me and Joe. As I stand there looking at him tears in both of our eyes he pulls me into his arms and I cry into his chest "Joey how am I supposed to do this without you?""Sweetbaby Im always here.""Joey please dont go." Just as I said that I heard a small sniffle and he reaches up wiping his eyes, that just broke my heart even more. " Baby, I love you please tell me you know that?"" I know""You know I have to do this""I know but I dont want you to go Joe, please dont go, please dont leave me!" Tears streaming down. I pull back at look at Joe tears sliding from his eyes, " Baby please I cant..I cant leave you like this.""Joey...I ""Sweetbaby""Joey baby please dont go". Just then as tears stream from both their eyes all that we heard was the patter of little feet as JJ runs down the stairs and yells "Daddy wait please dont go", Jon walked in just as JJ ran up tears in his little face and jumped into Joeys arms burying his face into his neck and cries. this caused Joe to cry more, Jon walked over grabbing JJ into his arms and softly spoke, "Buddy why you crying""I dont want my daddy to leave again""Buddy You know daddy loves you but he has to go to work.""Uncle Jon I dont want him to go Im going to miss him. I dont want you or Uncle Jordy, Uncle Donnie or Uncie Danny to leave why cant you stay?""Buddy our job is to go and sing and make people happy, but you know what?" JJ lets out a sniffle and wipes his eyes,"what""Next week Uncle Harley is coming to see me in Florida and I bet if its ok with mommy he will bring you and Vicky Girl with him""Really""Yes""can we mommy?" All their eyes on me "of course JJ". I wipe my eyes and give a half attempt at a smile all well my heart feels like it is being ripped from my chest and stomped on. "Sweetbaby why dont you come down with harley?" "I want to but you know Doctor Peterman told me I cant fly""crap." Donnie walked in a second later"Yo we gotta roll we gotta get to the airport" With a hug to JJ and one last hug to me Donnie whispered "Imma miss that pretty smile, go see Ma ok""I will." With one last kiss and a I love you he was gone. Here I sat on the sofa head in my hands tears in my eyes with a feeling that I cant even verbalize. I felt like someone took a knife to my heart. I did it without him in New York but I never expect coming back home and him leaving for another tour that I would feel like my world was crumbing, maybe its the pregnancy hormones maybe its I know he isnt going to make it for Jayden's birth. As much as keeps saying he is, lets be real the cards are stacked against us. I know I have Ma and Harley who will be in the delivery room with me but they arent My Joey Joe.