Never Let You Go (sequel to Where do we go from here)

Tragic turn of events

We been on the road for the last two and a half weeks, it honestly has started to take a toll on me. I miss home I miss my dogs mostly I miss Ma and Harley. I talk to both everyday usually multiple times a day. Joey jokes that he thinks Harley and me facetime more than him and Jon does. We were a couple of hours outside of Dallas and Joe and the kids were with Jordan and Steph on his bus because the big kids wanted to play the new Madden Jordan had bought earlier in tour and the twins had became increasinly close to Steph. Jayden was in his swing, I grabbed my phone and dialed Kay, the phone ran three times before I heard "hello""Hi Ma""well hello darling, how is everything""it's ok I guess""ok you guess, what's wrong""nothing really shows been going great it's just I miss home""oh darling, I know it's gotta be hard with the twins and their never ending energy and then the baby. ""It's not the kids or the baby that's the problem I have more hands than I know what do with to help""then what is it is it Joseph, are you all ok""No it's not Joey, were fine.. I guess it's to much on me""I know you always never had a interest in all this, I get why you went last tour but what I don't understand is if touring makes you so unhappy why you went this time""honestly ma""you know better""because after everything with Mark I couldn't even bare the thought of not being with him and with Jayden being so young they need to be with each other to bond. When I had the twins he wasn't in tour so he got that extra time with them. ""I understand why you did it I just hate how unhappy you are. ""I know you are ma and it's not that I'm unhappy being here it's the constant non stop, but there is only three more shows and days and we all will be home. ""How long of downtime does he have once y'all get back""couple months till he starts showcase rehearsal""showcase""guess so we really haven't talked about it much""well darling I know it's not ideal but your together and it is only a couple more days""I know""I sure do miss y'all""I miss you so much too ma""well darling Betty is Here we are going to Costco so I'm gonna have to let you go""ok ma I'll call you tommorow""Ok darling kiss the kids and the big baby, I love y'all""I will and I love you to ma""bye""bye. " I hung up tossing the phone on the bed next to me, I look over to see Jayden had fallen asleep in his swing with a little smile on his face and it amazes me still how identical to Joey Jayden is. I let out a small sigh and found myself lost in thought as I stared at the ceiling. I keep asking myself if Joey and I are ever going to get to have a normal life. I get all those years ago I knew as long as I was with Joey I would never get the "normal" life. I know this is his passion . As difficult as this is I honestly  can say I wouldn't change it because it has made him who he is and at the end of the day I could search a thousand lifetimes and I would never find someone who loves me like he does. I would never find someone who I would love like I love him with my entire mind body and soul.

The next three days crawled by but finally we were on the bus heading home, I will miss JoJo but he promised to stay in touch. It was 2 in the morning when the bus finally pulled up to the house, were finally home, I let out a breathe of relief. Joey looks over "were home baby its over" he leans in and kisses me softly, "thank you sweetbaby""for what""for coming, putting up with the road even know you hate it""I dont hate it""yes you do, but you came with the twins and Jay 3 weeks after having him.You were at ever show,every photo shoot. Took care of the kids,made sure I was straight that we all were. You even went on Starbucks runs for Jon and everyone every morning just so we had it, I cant tell you what it meant that you came.""My Joey Joe you know I would do anything for you I thought you knew that""I do, come on lets these kids in and upstairs and we can get into our own bed and I can properly thank you""well Mr Mcintyre what do you have in mind?" he cocked his eyebrow and I let out a little giggle.He grabbed JJ and Earl who had pulled up behind us grabbed Victoria and I had Jay and we carried them up placing them in bed, after hugs and goodbyes Earl and JoJo headed out for some much earned down time. I grabbed a Pepsi and locked up arming the security system before checking the answering machine and heading up to bed,I was about the 3rd message in when I was hit with shock "AYYYYYYY BooBoo whats good miss ya face holla at you girl and ya boy, say Hi Kiari, AYYYYY Boo. Anyways holla back OKURRRRTTTT. Kiss dem babies tell dem Auntie Cardi and Uncle Kiari miss dem". what in the fuck? Joey will fuckin freak. I shook my head and hit delete what in the fuck do they want. I headed up the stairs and checked on the kids before walking into the bedroom to find Joey laying sprawled out on the bed completely stripped down naked, "McIntyre what are you doing?""what""where your clothes""they fell off""fell off huh, now I dont mind the visual but what if one of our children walked in""please baby they dead out""maybe...what you plotting""just what I told you on the bus sweetbaby.""Really""yes I have to properly thank you for everything you did""Joey""No why dont you say you get rid out those clothes and get that sweet ass into this bed". I cocked my eyebrow at him "sweet ass huh"" yea sweet ass less chit chat get over here""arent you fuckin tired""I just drank 2 Redbulls so fuckin yes tired no, no shut that pretty lil mouth and get over here." I slid down the straps of my tanktop down, Joey's started to blaze " thats it baby do it slow" the look of his eyes and the sound of his voice when he said that instantly made me begin to ache for him. "thats it now unbutton your jeans" I do as i am told. "Thats it baby...damn you sexy" I removed the rest of my clothes, "com'ere baby". I slid into the bed next to him, he grabbed the stereo remote and his play all that could be heard through the room was