Never Let You Go (sequel to Where do we go from here)

So is it gonna be huge

I pulled off from of the studio as fast as I could and made the normal over hour drive home in little over half a hour. I walked in tired, frustrated and hurt. I threw my Chanel purse at the couch and screamed "FUCK!!!" I slammed through the backdoor and over to Brooklyn's memorial spot and sat down with my head in my hands and sobbed. Diablo came and laid down at my feet and whimpered followed by Chanel and Gucci. It wasn't long as I sat sobbing I felt a pair of hands on my shoulder I sniffled "Joe leave me alone""Im not Joe". I sniffed and wiped my eyes looking up, it was Donnie, "What are you doing here""I couldn't let you leave out like that and not make sure your okay""what do you think""I think your sad and hurt and have every right to be""Donnie why didn't he show up?""Im not going to make a excuse for him, he gets into a zone when he is in the booth and thats all he focuses on""Donnie he promised""I know he did shorty""he never ever has not been there""I promise he was in the booth and recording in his zone""it doesn't matter he promised he be there bailed on me and then just sat there with that dumb look on his face""well you surprised him you surprised all of us.""Where is he?""With Jon ""I told him to fall back and let me talk to you first""why did you have to come here first""because knowing you I was worried he come home and you'd punch him in the damn face" I let out a little laugh, "see there is the beautiful smile I love". I feel Donnie wrap his arms around me and pulled me close into a hug. We headed back in and Donnie flopped down onto the couch grabbing the remote "what are you doing Wahlberg?""Chilling""ummmm Im straight you can go""nah Ill wait""for what""I got a bet with Danny $50 you knock him out when he walks in""Donnie""fine" he threw his hands up and stood up and walked over, with a hug and a kiss on the cheek he left. Harley had texted when he had heard what happened and offered to keep the kids overnight. I locked up once Donnie left and headed upstairs. I had a headache and my nerves were shot. I walked into the bathroom and started the tub tossing in some bubble bath and bath bombs. I lit some candles and slid in, in the hopes that it would settle me down some.

I laid in there letting the days stress just melt away. I didnt even realize how long I was actually in there all I know is when i got out the water had gotten cold. I dressed into Joes basketball shorts and hoodie at this point its about the only thing that is fitting me comfortably anymore. I settled into bed and Diablo jumped up with Chanel and Gucci who were already on the bed. I think I must have dozed off watching TV, because all I remember is waking up to hearing Joe whisper "Sweetbaby". I sit up and stretch and Diablo shifts to lay across my lap, "Sweetbaby""What Joe""Im so sorry baby, you have no idea""Joe you fucking promised then bailed on me you didnt even bother to text or call me and say you werent coming, you just left me totally up in the fucking air.""I know and Im sorry". I feel him lean in to wrap me in his arms and just as he does Diablo starts to growl "damn it dog stop", he leans in again, and Diablo does it again "sweetbaby what gives""Diablo crate" he just looked up at me "I said Diablo crate now" he jumps off the bed and curls up in his crate in the other side of the room. "Is that better""what gives with him""he knows when Im upset and he doesnt like it.""Listen sweetbaby you gotta know how sorry I am""you maybe sorry fine but its gonna be you that has to live with missing it""I know..."" I do have it saved on DVD you know""you do""yes you big jerk do you wanna watch it""ABSOLUTLY, let me get undressed quick" he leaned over and kissed my lips "baby""yep""I love you""love you too Joe". he stripped down to his boxers and took the DVD out of my purse and popped in and climbed into the bed next to me turning it on. I sat and watched him watching that DVD with the tears in his eyes and I knew that I couldnt stay mad any longer. I leaned up and kissed his cheek, " there is lil Jayden Storm Mcintyre."" I cant believe we made that""yes Joe we did". He clicked off the DVD and wrapped is arms around me placing his hands on my stomach, as if Jayden knew he started to move and kick for Joey to feel. I curled up in bed and fell asleep a short time later, Joe had to get up in a few hours to be back in the studio and Im heading back to home to help out ma with some stuff before kids got home from school.