It had been about two months since I was released from the hospital. Nathan has been as sweet as he ever has been, trying to help me get better faster. He even took a break from The Wanted while I was recovering. There were still some days that I felt sore and just wanted to give up and stay in bed, but those days were quickly dwindling.
When I was in a coma in the hospital, I swear Nathan told me things I never thought were possible. I could have sworn I heard him say he was going to put a ring on my finger. So far, he hasn’t. I don’t want to feel disappointed, since he doesn’t know that I heard him, but I do. Every day I wake up, I wonder if today was the day that he was going to propose to me, but still nothing.
I slowly made my way down the stairs to make myself some breakfast while Nathan was at work. As I prepared and cooked my eggs, I felt feeling nauseous. It’s just a side effect to the medication. I thought to myself and poured myself a glass of ginger ale to soothe my stomach. That did very little to settle it. Two seconds later, I was running down the hall toward the bathroom. I had made it just in time before I vomited everywhere. For the past few days, I couldn’t keep anything down.
After I had finished throwing up, I wiped my face and flushed the toilet before going back to my food. My appetite had disappeared, so I put the food in proper storage containers and put it in the refrigerator for later.
I went back upstairs and got back into my bed. As I curled under the covers, I flipped through the channels to find something to watch while I waited for Nathan to come home. I stopped at a show called I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant on TLC. It made me start to think. I was nauseous every day, I was late on my period, and I was tired all the time. My doctors have told me that all of these were side effects of my medication, but now I was really starting to wonder, could I be pregnant?
The thought scared me. I wasn’t ready to be a mother yet. Especially after all that has happened to me in the past few months. I was still on a lot of medication that could hurt any child that I could be carrying. I wasn’t psychologically ready to be a mother, either. I was in and out of therapy. It’s not that I don’t ever want to have children, because I do, I just feel that the timing may be wrong. My mind wandered, mulling over the thought of my having children, as I dozed off.
The next thing I knew, I felt a kiss on the side of my cheek. I smiled, knowing Nathan was finally home. I wrapped my arms around his neck to pull him in for another kiss. “How’s my sleeping beauty today?” Nathan asked. My mind quickly wandered to my possible pregnancy.
“Um…ok I guess.” I answered, the uncertainty I was feeling showed through my voice. “You guess?” Nathan asked with a raised eyebrow. “Yeah.” I said, knowing he wouldn’t leave it alone. “What’s wrong?” he asked. I sighed before I answered, “I think I may be pregnant.”
I held my breath and waiting for Nathan to answer. “Are you sure?” he asked. “Not yet, but I will find out.” Again, my voice deceived me. “What do you want to do, babe?” he asked me, concern written all over his face. “To be honest, I don’t know. I’m not sure if I am ready to be a mom. Not after everything that has happened to me.” He nodded, understanding where I was coming from. “Well, you never know. This may be a blessing in disguise. It may be what we need to finally put the past behind us and start moving forward.” I smiled at him. This is one of the reasons why I loved Nathan. He was always so practical. “True. I guess we will keep it then, if I am pregnant.” I said, trying to sound hopeful. “Don’t do something you don’t want to do on my account, babe. I may be a bit disappointed, but I will always support you, no matter what you decide.” He said, taking my hands and giving them a small squeeze of encouragement. “I know, babe. I will think about it.” I say with a smile.
I reached over to the bedside table, where my phone was sitting. I dialed my doctor’s office. “Hello, I would like to make an appointment.” I said into the receiver when they finally answered. Nathan sat beside me quietly as I made the appointment with my doctor for the next day for a pregnancy test. When I finally hung up, he was behind me, giving me a massage. I have never felt happier in my life.
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Broken Love
FanfictionAlice lives in an abusive home. After a beating that leaves her weak, she runs into the arms of her best friend, Nathan Sykes. She moves in with him to get away from the abuse to find that she has fallen in love with her best friend..