Friends?//Hayes Grier

chapter seventeen

hey 12 AM update

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HAYES POV

I was currently in Chris's room, sprawled out on her floor not paying attention what she's trying to explain to me. Chris is really smart, so it's easy to understand what she says, but sometimes I choose not to pay attention because school is boring.

"Hayes?!" She says, snapping her fingers in front of my face.

"Cmon the sooner we finish the sooner we can go to 16 handles" she says, looking at me with pleading eyes. I sigh, and put my head on my binder.

"Fine, I'll go get snacks to hold us off" she says running off, and out of her room.

Something drops from her desk, and I pull my eyebrows together. I stretch over, and grab it. It's a pink notebook with stickers all over it. I opened it up, and flipped to a page that had the date 4/17/11, the date that thing happened with her mom. I read the paragraph, and it was just getting all her feelings out. Oh I remember this. After her mom was put in rehab, her family therapist/helper/assistant person said it might make her feel better if she wrote what she felt.

I continued to flip through her notebook, when my eyes caught the attention of a certain date: 10/28/. That was a few weeks ago, after the pool party. Why would she be writing about this year?

Well today is officially one month after the pool party where Hayes pretty much saved my life, and we kissed. I know writing inhere is stupid, but Alexandra said that getting your feelings out by writing helps. Well it does because when my mom was put it rehab, it felt good to let it all out. So that's what I'm going to do, except with Hayes. He's been dating this snotty girl, Christina, who thinks she can tell Hayes and I what to do. Well mostly me. She came to my house and told me to stay away from, Hayes and he's my best friend. So I tried being mean and obnoxious, maybe thinking it would be easier, but it didn't. I ended up crying, and Christina told Hayes some lie and then he kind of just rubbed her in my face which made me cry on the inside. So the only thing I could think of doing was fighting back. Maybe it would help. But when they kissed, I was actually about to run into the bathroom. But then I remembered what I found out about Christina, and used that. Why was I upset when she kissed Hayes? Because I like Hayes. I really don't know how or why, I just do. I really shouldn't even have feelings for my bestfriend, but all of a sudden goosebumps and sparks keep exploding all over my body. Especially when we kissed. I had no idea who it was, but when I did, I did feel bad because I didn't want Hayes to turn his back on Christina like that, but I felt kinda awkward to. Like I just kissed my best friend, that I now have a crush on. And I do want to tell him, but only if I'm sure he has feelings for me too, and that's what I'm afraid of. What if I tell him I like him and he doesn't like me back? Then everything will be ruined. Our friendship will be demolished. And I don't want that. I rather have secret feelings than ruin my friend ship with my best friend.

My mouth dropped. Chris has feelings for me? I quickly shut the notebook, and tossed it back where I found it, just in time because Chris walked in the room.

"Okay Im sick of homework, wanna just wing it and do it tomorrow morning?" She asks with 2 bags of goldfish in her hand.

Well now I can't get the thought of Chris liking me out of my mind. I definitely like Chris, but I don't know what to do. Do I tell her I have feelings for her straight up? But then she might lie, or ask how I know and I'll be screwed. After a few minutes of thinking about this, I finally decided I was juts going to be the insanely great flirt that I am, and see how that goes. But I'll take it slow, nothing too fast because I definitely don't want her to get suspicious or anything. I mean I already told her she's beautiful a few weeks ago, which is true. Chris and Christina do look alike, but Chris is definitely prettier.

"C'mon let's go to 16 Handles" she says getting up from her desk, and running down the stairs.

I start to tie my vans, when she runs back upstairs, probably forgot something. I wait downstairs, patiently by the door, when she comes running down the stairs. She misses a step, and goes flying, right into me. I catch her in my arms, and she looks up at me.

"Chris, that was some serious air" I say chuckling. She laughs, and slightly bites her bottom lip. She's been doing this a lot lately. Biting her bottom lip. She tilts her head slightly, and she wont break eye contacts with me.

"What?" I asked, and she shakes her head.

"Nothing" she mutters, and slides on her shoes. Now I'm wondering why she was staring at me. I'm not complaining, I just want to know why.

We walk down the sidewalk and made it to 16 handles. We go to the back, where you put the fro-yo on the cups. And she got cake batter, and mint chocolate chip, and I got Oreo and mint chocolate chip. We pile the toppings on, and weigh it. She reaches into her pocket to look for money, but I hand the clerk a $20 before she can even see.

"Hayes you didn't have to pay, I have money" she says, but I shake my head.

"My treat" I say and smile. We walk home from 16handles in silence, because we are too busy devouring the first layer of toppings. I can tell she's looking at me every once and a while, but I sneak a few glances at her.

"Oh god Hayes!" She says covering her mouth and laughing. I look at her confused.

"It's all over your face!" She says laughing.

I take my finger, and dip it in her frozen yogurt, and swirl it around. I take it out, and wipe it all over her face. Her mouth is hanging open, as she let's small giggles escape her mouth. She takes out her phone, and we take a bunch of pictures. We walk home in silence, again, eating the remains of what was in our containers.

We get home, and go up to her bathroom.

"Okay I'm going to clean you up," she says turning on the sink.

I nod, and she washes her face first. Then she comes over to me, and wets the towel in room temperature water. I let her clean my face, enjoying her soft fingers against my skin. She's so soft, and gentle with me, like she's afraid I'm going to break.

When she's done, I thank her, "thanks mom" and laugh lightly.

She smiles, and we walk back into her room. We just talk about random things, like we always do. We end up being in her room for 2 hours, just talking.

"Okay I'm gonna go home, I'm tired" I admit, even though I wasn't all that tired.

She nods and stands up, which I get confused by. Usually she let's me find my way out. She follows me down to the door, and when I'm done putting onmy shoes, she hugs me tightly.

"Thank you for the fro yo" she whispers, and I smile. I wrap my arms around her, enjoying this little moment.

"I'll uh see you tomorrow?" She says, more like a question, and I nod. She shuts the door, and i walk back to my house.

Then I kept thinking about the fact, that when she touched me, or when we hugged, all I felt was sparks.

A/N:

long-ish/filler-ish sowwwyyy:(