Friends?//Hayes Grier

chapter twenty two

you guys are gonna kill hayes for what he does in this chapter

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HAYES POV

Do you think I should be dating Brandon, or you?

Brandon, or you?

Or you?

It kept running through my mind, over and over.

"W-We were never a thing" I say, which was probably really stupid. Girls always take things the wrong way, and she might take this badly.

"I-I know I just thought b-because you just...we just kinda acted like a couple, i guess" she says very quietly. This is very awkward. Very.

"Oh" is all I could say.

I didn't know what else to say. What should I say?

"S-So since your my best friend, I just wanted to know what you thought" she says putting emphasis on 'you'. I nod, and bite the inside of my cheek. Well I really do want her to be with me, but if we break up, everything might be awkward and ruined, which I've never thought about before.

"Well" I started to say, letting a big breath out I didn't even know I was holding.

"I um I-I mean if you like Brandon go with him, but if you like me...." I said trailing off because I'm pretty sure she knows what I mean. I want her to be with me, but I don't want to seem to desperate and clingy. Chris hates people like that.

"I um I-I think I like Brandon" she says, a tear slipping out of her eyes. I wipe it away quickly.

"Then that's cool if you like him" I say. Her facial expression drops completely, and I wonder why.

"S-So what of I liked you? That would be cool too right?" She asks with a little attitude. I think she took what I just said in a bad way.

"If you liked me I'd be really happy" I admit. She smiles a little, before sighing loudly.

"So I should be with you?" She asks. Well she should, but I don't want to force her to be with me if she likes Brandon.

"If you like me, then be with me, if you like Brandon go with Brandon" I say plainly. A few tears fall from her eyes, and I suddenly regret what I just said.

"So that's it" she says standing up. Great.

"No Chris you know I didn't -" I began to say but she cut me off.

"No I know exactly what you mean. You don't like me more than a friend, I get that" she says tears coming out of her eyes.

"Chris you know I didn't mean it like that" I say standing up so we were face to face. She was about 5'3, so I was a lot taller than her.

"Then how else did you mean it? You secretly like me and decided to show me you liked me a few days ago? And suddenly Brandon comes in and you don't tell me how you actually feel, because if you did maybe things would be different" she says, wiping her tears away.

"But I didn't want to fell like I'm forcing you, okay. I don't want to tell you to be with me because I don't want you to feel like you have to be with me. If you like Brandon go with him, if you like me stay with me" I say.

She looks around, and wipes away a few extra tears that were on her cheek. I move closer to her, and she doesn't move she looks right into my eyes. I open up my arms, and she scoots in closer and wraps her little arms around my torso. I rub up and down her back, and she keeps her head on my chest, and I put my head on hers.

"Whatever you decide, I'll be there for you, okay?" I say into her hair, then kissing her head, and she nods. She looks up at me, then falls back into my arms.

"I'm uh I'm gonna call Brandon" she says quietly, and I nod.

I am pretty upset about that decision, but I have to be there for her. I'm praying he breaks her heart, not so she's sad, so she can maybe come with me. But I don't want her to be sad.

"Okay. Maybe we can hang out tomorrow? Like a best friend day? Unless your gonna hang out with Brandon" I suggest, and she smiles.

"That would be nice. I'll come over at...12?" She says and I nod. She gathers her things and heads for the door. Then I stop her.

"What?" She asked.

"I'm always here for you, Chris" I say and smile. She nods and smiles before heading downstairs.

I hope she's making the right choice, because if she's hurt, he's going down.

A/N:

he let her go awh poo BUT DONT WORRY

TRUST ME IT GETS BETTER (if it isn't already)