Le Randomness In A Bottle

BRAIN, WHY?!

I really don't know how to explain this, but I will try.

You know that moment when your friend catching your reading depressing stuff and doesn't talk to you and instead uses the internet even though your sitting right next to her.

It happened.

My problem is, I don't act nice and apologize right away. Some little bitchy part of me gets defensive and snaps at said friend.

Then I look back on that moment, and flip out.

Because the nice side of me doesn't do stuff that. I guess my hard shell won't dicipate, even if I command it to.

*EDIT* I was kind of bottling my emotions when I wrote this, so eh... *backs away slowly* ^^;